I cannot stop myself from getting drunk when I have access to alcohol
Addy
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I cannot stop myself from getting drunk when I have access to alcohol
When there is no alcohol around, Ian fine but when I know there's a store around the corner or a bar, I can't stop myself from going there. It happens every evening after office as there are a few bars on the way back home.
This may sound weird but when I wear a suit and tie, I get this immense urge to drink and it had led me to have a couple of drinks before office every morning.
Recently I've started getting so drunk that I sometimes cannot return home since I pass out on the way.
I don't like it when I find myself lying on the road next morning but I'm unable to help myself with drinking.
This may sound weird but when I wear a suit and tie, I get this immense urge to drink and it had led me to have a couple of drinks before office every morning.
Recently I've started getting so drunk that I sometimes cannot return home since I pass out on the way.
I don't like it when I find myself lying on the road next morning but I'm unable to help myself with drinking.
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Hello and welcome.
I drank like you, somewhat.
I never met a bar I didn't like. Even the ones I was thrown out of.
I had a really hard time passing a bar when I was drinking. The smells, the lights and the booze all of it I liked.
I lived like that for twenty five years. Bartenders were my friends in my regular haunts.
Never even had to ask me what I wanted to drink when I walked in the door, just began pouring it. I was a good tipper and it paid off in the occasional free drink,
But, I digress.
I was the same way with liquor stores when I wasn't in a bar. Earned myself a line of credit at them I was such a good customer.
I didn't wear a suit, I worked in show business. It made me feel special. I loved it and drinking was part of that culture.
I started drinking of a morning myself. Two shooters of whiskey on the two block walk home from the liquor store at 8:30am.
I'm just writing this to let you know you're not alone and that I understand.
It's been nine and a half years since I've had a drink, and I got sucked into many bars in my first attempts to quit.
But I persevered.
It took me a long time to quit, and I hope you don't hit the low points I did before stopping.
Sorry so long winded, just wanted to welcome you and let you know you're not alone and are understood.
Stick around, you'll find a lot of support here.
Best to you.
I drank like you, somewhat.
I never met a bar I didn't like. Even the ones I was thrown out of.
I had a really hard time passing a bar when I was drinking. The smells, the lights and the booze all of it I liked.
I lived like that for twenty five years. Bartenders were my friends in my regular haunts.
Never even had to ask me what I wanted to drink when I walked in the door, just began pouring it. I was a good tipper and it paid off in the occasional free drink,
But, I digress.
I was the same way with liquor stores when I wasn't in a bar. Earned myself a line of credit at them I was such a good customer.
I didn't wear a suit, I worked in show business. It made me feel special. I loved it and drinking was part of that culture.
I started drinking of a morning myself. Two shooters of whiskey on the two block walk home from the liquor store at 8:30am.
I'm just writing this to let you know you're not alone and that I understand.
It's been nine and a half years since I've had a drink, and I got sucked into many bars in my first attempts to quit.
But I persevered.
It took me a long time to quit, and I hope you don't hit the low points I did before stopping.
Sorry so long winded, just wanted to welcome you and let you know you're not alone and are understood.
Stick around, you'll find a lot of support here.
Best to you.
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Very glad to meet you, Addy.
I drank in a similar way. Once that first drink was down, I could never predict what might happen. The only way for me to stay safe was to stop all together. I hope you'll keep posting - we all understand what you're going through.
I drank in a similar way. Once that first drink was down, I could never predict what might happen. The only way for me to stay safe was to stop all together. I hope you'll keep posting - we all understand what you're going through.
Addy
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
Welcome Addy 
Waking up on the road even just once is pretty serious, doing it again and again is pretty hardcore.
have you tried to stop drinking before?
Waking up on the road even just once is pretty serious, doing it again and again is pretty hardcore.
have you tried to stop drinking before?
Now, whenever I wear a business suit it's impossible for me to not want to get drunk.
Addy
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Originally Posted by Ghostlight1
Hello and welcome.
I drank like you, somewhat.
I never met a bar I didn't like. Even the ones I was thrown out of.
I had a really hard time passing a bar when I was drinking. The smells, the lights and the booze all of it I liked.
I lived like that for twenty five years. Bartenders were my friends in my regular haunts.
Never even had to ask me what I wanted to drink when I walked in the door, just began pouring it. I was a good tipper and it paid off in the occasional free drink,
But, I digress.
I was the same way with liquor stores when I wasn't in a bar. Earned myself a line of credit at them I was such a good customer.
I didn't wear a suit, I worked in show business. It made me feel special. I loved it and drinking was part of that culture.
I started drinking of a morning myself. Two shooters of whiskey on the two block walk home from the liquor store at 8:30am.
I'm just writing this to let you know you're not alone and that I understand.
It's been nine and a half years since I've had a drink, and I got sucked into many bars in my first attempts to quit.
But I persevered.
It took me a long time to quit, and I hope you don't hit the low points I did before stopping.
Sorry so long winded, just wanted to welcome you and let you know you're not alone and are understood.
Stick around, you'll find a lot of support here.
Best to you.
I drank like you, somewhat.
I never met a bar I didn't like. Even the ones I was thrown out of.
I had a really hard time passing a bar when I was drinking. The smells, the lights and the booze all of it I liked.
I lived like that for twenty five years. Bartenders were my friends in my regular haunts.
Never even had to ask me what I wanted to drink when I walked in the door, just began pouring it. I was a good tipper and it paid off in the occasional free drink,
But, I digress.
I was the same way with liquor stores when I wasn't in a bar. Earned myself a line of credit at them I was such a good customer.
I didn't wear a suit, I worked in show business. It made me feel special. I loved it and drinking was part of that culture.
I started drinking of a morning myself. Two shooters of whiskey on the two block walk home from the liquor store at 8:30am.
I'm just writing this to let you know you're not alone and that I understand.
It's been nine and a half years since I've had a drink, and I got sucked into many bars in my first attempts to quit.
But I persevered.
It took me a long time to quit, and I hope you don't hit the low points I did before stopping.
Sorry so long winded, just wanted to welcome you and let you know you're not alone and are understood.
Stick around, you'll find a lot of support here.
Best to you.
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Well, the suit is just one association...for all of us with a drinking problem there are many triggering situations.
If you changed jobs to one where you wore a uniform, then the uniform would be the "trigger." It's just what your addiction is grabbing onto today.
We all have things we have to continue to do after we quit drinking. For instance, I drank because I was sad. Oh, and to celebrate. Or if I got mad at someone. Or in the end, if I was awake.
The waking up on the street is very bad and it is not going to get better. I hope you will find a way to stop completely. It's the only solution.
If you changed jobs to one where you wore a uniform, then the uniform would be the "trigger." It's just what your addiction is grabbing onto today.
We all have things we have to continue to do after we quit drinking. For instance, I drank because I was sad. Oh, and to celebrate. Or if I got mad at someone. Or in the end, if I was awake.
The waking up on the street is very bad and it is not going to get better. I hope you will find a way to stop completely. It's the only solution.
Addy
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I try to avoid waking up on the road, ie passing out on the road. I avoid going to bars and try to buy alcohol and drink at home. But sometimes the urge is so intense that once I have bought alcohol, I cannot but put it to my lips. And once u start drinking... May it be in a bar, in public or at home. I can stop only after I pass out.
The suit may be an association because when my drinking increased I was in a job where we had business suits as dress code. It was followed by a business school where the dress code remained same and my recent job also needs me to wear business suits, or at least a formal shirt and tie. So if its indeed an association, it's so strong that the moment I wear it, or even when I think of wearing a suit, I get the urge to drink
The suit may be an association because when my drinking increased I was in a job where we had business suits as dress code. It was followed by a business school where the dress code remained same and my recent job also needs me to wear business suits, or at least a formal shirt and tie. So if its indeed an association, it's so strong that the moment I wear it, or even when I think of wearing a suit, I get the urge to drink
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Originally Posted by Addy2204
I try to avoid waking up on the road, ie passing out on the road. I avoid going to bars and try to buy alcohol and drink at home. But sometimes the urge is so intense that once I have bought alcohol, I cannot but put it to my lips. And once u start drinking... May it be in a bar, in public or at home. I can stop only after I pass out.
The suit may be an association because when my drinking increased I was in a job where we had business suits as dress code. It was followed by a business school where the dress code remained same and my recent job also needs me to wear business suits, or at least a formal shirt and tie. So if its indeed an association, it's so strong that the moment I wear it, or even when I think of wearing a suit, I get the urge to drink
The suit may be an association because when my drinking increased I was in a job where we had business suits as dress code. It was followed by a business school where the dress code remained same and my recent job also needs me to wear business suits, or at least a formal shirt and tie. So if its indeed an association, it's so strong that the moment I wear it, or even when I think of wearing a suit, I get the urge to drink
The thing to do is stop drinking. No matter what. No matter what you are wearing, no matter what time of day it is, no matter what happens or doesn't happen, no matter where you are or what day it is or what time.
Do not pick up that first drink. No matter what.
If you cannot do that on your own, maybe hit an AA meeting or see your doctor for help.
Addy
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I am feeling like a hypocrite. I'm writing all those things here but I am drinking as I write this posr. There's a liquor store just a block away from my ofc and all day long today I had this urge of getting drunk probably becz of the suit or whatever. I could not wait for office to end and rushed to the store to buy myself a bottle of rum. I'm sitting on a bench drinking from the bottle as I write this... Maybe I'm beyond help
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Originally Posted by Addy2204
I am feeling like a hypocrite. I'm writing all those things here but I am drinking as I write this posr. There's a liquor store just a block away from my ofc and all day long today I had this urge of getting drunk probably becz of the suit or whatever. I could not wait for office to end and rushed to the store to buy myself a bottle of rum. I'm sitting on a bench drinking from the bottle as I write this... Maybe I'm beyond help
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You're not beyond help. We've all drank or drank too much when we didn't plan on it.
But for right now, let's try to do a little damage control.
If you're far from home, start going home now before you get so wasted you end up passed out somewhere.
When you get home eat, drink water and go to bed - don't stop anywhere on the way home for more to drink.
Tomorrow, you can not drink. Yes, it's possible.
But for right now, let's try to do a little damage control.
If you're far from home, start going home now before you get so wasted you end up passed out somewhere.
When you get home eat, drink water and go to bed - don't stop anywhere on the way home for more to drink.
Tomorrow, you can not drink. Yes, it's possible.
Addy
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Originally Posted by biminiblue
You're not beyond help. We've all drank or drank too much when we didn't plan on it.
But for right now, let's try to do a little damage control.
If you're far from home, start going home now before you get so wasted you end up passed out somewhere.
When you get home eat, drink water and go to bed - don't stop anywhere on the way home for more to drink.
Tomorrow, you can not drink. Yes, it's possible.
But for right now, let's try to do a little damage control.
If you're far from home, start going home now before you get so wasted you end up passed out somewhere.
When you get home eat, drink water and go to bed - don't stop anywhere on the way home for more to drink.
Tomorrow, you can not drink. Yes, it's possible.
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Originally Posted by Addy2204
Ojay... Tonorroe I won't dribk. Il drink only y today cz I've started anyway
It would be best if you don't drink any more today - head home.
Addy
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Originally Posted by biminiblue
Are you heading home now? Start moving...so you don't do anything else you'll regret.
It would be best if you don't drink any more today - head home.
It would be best if you don't drink any more today - head home.
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I drank similar(minus sleeping in the street) and I don't have a dress code,so I seriously doubt it's your suit. It's your thinking that's the problem. Stop drinking now and start building a sobriety plan. Be it rehab,AA,smart,here,therapy,DR help,all of them,ect.. I've blammed my past drinking on loads of 'life' being thrown my way,but never on clothing.
Edit: I have woken up in jail a couple times related to my drinking,so I guess that's worse than sleeping on the street.
Edit: I have woken up in jail a couple times related to my drinking,so I guess that's worse than sleeping on the street.
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