Highercall

I have had a difficult day after another relapse. I believe getting to day 10 is a very important milestone for me. Alcohollism is a difficult nut to crack. I understand why AA says an alcoholic needs a higher power to keep them away from alcohol. It seems no matter how strong my resolve suddenly a switch flips in my head and I go out and drink. Has anyone else experienced this?

doggonecarl

Are you part of the fellowship of AA? If not, go. Perhaps they can help you get to the sobriety milestone you seek.

Highercall

No I am not a member of AA but certainly am considering it.

Forward12

Don't consider, do it.
AA is everywhere, and all you have to do is walk in the door and sit down.

Highercall

Have looked up meetings in my area and will attend this week

JK130

To answer your question...Most/all of us have indeed felt a strong urge to drink after resolving not to. It gets a ton easier, but after 3 years I still occassionally romanticize about drinking. The truth is that you can get and stay sober by yourself - with an organization's support, with online encouragement, with a bag of tricks to distract you during the craving times, or none of those - whatever it takes. Your health and safety depend on you taking control, and you are a strong person who can do it!!! So, today is day 1? What are you planning for that troublesome day 10 to stay sober? Something busy and fun would be nice...and then day 11, 12, and so on. We'll cheer for you! (Have you joined the monthly support group? I'm sorry I didn't)

snitch

Hi, I am 2 months sober and am going to AA. I was at a meeting today and there was lots of talk of Higher Power. Everyone who shared credits their Higher Power, the 12 Steps and the Fellowship of AA keeping them sober. Not just keeping them sober but living decent, worthwhile lives whilst sober.

My last drink nearly killed me. I really didn't know if I was going to survive and in that dark, desolate, despairing void I was in I prayed. I prayed so hard to God. I wanted to live not die and I prayed to remove the obsession of alcohol from me. I believe my prayers were heard. I survived the night and the next day I went to a meeting. I haven't had a drop since and don't desire one.

The people I have met in AA are so supportive. They just want you to get better and they know exactly what you are going through as they have been there themselves. It really is amazing. The meeting I went to today isn't one I normally go to. I picked up a 2 month chip and these men and women, strangers, were so pleased for me!! It was very emotional and I felt truly happy. Why would I then want to go and numb that real feeling of joy with alcohol?!

Please go. You have nothing to lose and EVERYTHING to gain. Good luck!!!

Highercall

Thank you all for your replies and encouragement. I will definitely give AA a try. I can honestly say my life with alcohol in it is not worth living. I have nothing to lose and everything to gain.👍🏻

D122y

High,

If I could not stay clean on my own, I would go to AA.

Something I always remember is this...I have brain damage from drinking and drugs. I needed booze to feel normal.

If I don't feel normal I suffer. I know that if I drink I will feel better for a short time, then I will begin to suffer again. It is a cycle of doom.

Thanks.