Laura3

I'm not going to quit drinking. I have too much of a drug history. I've been thinking about drugs again. It's safer drinking. I am going to try to drink less though.

Laura3

Thanks to everyone who supported me.

doggonecarl

Alcohol is a drug.

Hope you reconsider.

AnvilheadII

sorry laura, but your reasoning does not make any sense.

drinking is not a solution. drinking today doesn't change yesterday or ten years ago. i did drugs too, that is no excuse. drinking is not safe and there is no drinking less............

sober puts ALL that crap behind you.

least

I also hope you reconsider your decision to drink. It only leads to misery.

fini

Laura,
that makes sense, right?
looks like a good decision: keep drinking in order not to use.
totally sensible to choose drinking as the safer way. harm reduction.

and that is the terrifying thing: that this makes sense to you. where you're at, wanting to keep the escape hatch open, wanting to keep the false solution in your life.

some call it stinking thinking.

but it sure can look like a sensible option when you convince yourself there are olytwo options: keep drinking or drug.

there are other options. people here lay them out all ove the place. and people just like you make them work for themselves. you are not so especially and uniquely screwed up that you have to keep drinking.

Dee74

Hi Laura

None of us can make you stay here or make you stay sober and clean/

All of us tho have horror stories about where our drinking or drug taking led us, and all of us will tell you that things get worse the longer we let them go..

You're not the only one here with multiple addictions. We know the inner struggle you're having.

It is scary to think of life with no means of escape - but the idea that you can't be addiction free, or that you have to settle for what you see as a 'lesser' addictions' is just not true.

There is no control over active addiction. If you continue to drink the addiction process will continue and progress.

I really hope you change your mind - if not today, soon

D

Laura3

Yes it does make sense to me because I had no drug cravings up until now for years and I'm lucky to be alive from my drug use. It was heavy. I'm still wanting recovery but right now isn't the time if I'm going to crave drugs.

wildflower70

Hi Laura,

I also used alcohol to quit-

Cocaine
Weed
Bad Relationships
Painful Feelings
Crappy Jobs
Stressing Out
Dealing with Life

Then I stopped alcohol to quit-

Being Sad
Getting Sick
Losing Jobs
Unsafe Sex
Driving Drunk
Acting Obnoxious
Slowly Dying

I have been a drug addict, sex addict, and a booze addict my entire life.

I have suffered childhood traumas, abusive relationships, and self inflicted harm.

The only freedom I have ever found was from quitting everything that was harmful to my health.

It was challenging and confusing at times, and the best decision I have ever made.

You can find a path of joy and self love....It's waiting for you.

WF

bloss

Getting off the drugs was a gift to yourself, you are still around and that is good. Drinking will eventually let you down and possibly with your judgment impaired lead right back to drugs. Don't pick up today, stay here, go to a meeting, call someone...anything besides picking up a drink which won't save you from doing drugs, it most likely will lead you back.

Laura3

You're right, it isn't the best thing to be doing but I'm not taking chances with my life. I understand I have a problem but stopping on my own right now won't work. I need some time to get professional help and have a recovery plan before I try again. One night out on drugs could ruin my life more than it is already.

AtomicBlue

Laura3, you are painting yourself into a corner that doesn't exist. You do not have to drink or use drugs.

CNNlive

♥️ I do love this, thank you.

Laura3

It might have been this recovery group that triggered me on a subconscious level. Memories of feeling hopeless.

Laura3

I also have to quit these groups

fini

take good care, Laura.

Dee74

I used alcohol to try and quit weed.
I ended up with an alcohol addiction to go with my weed addiction.

When I got high I wanted to be drunk as well and vice versa.

You can blame recovery groups and SR for triggering you but IMO thats not really whats going on here.

You sound absolutely terrified at the thought of giving everything up.

That's actually a really good reason to..give everything up

I promise it's not as scary as you think - hard work & commitment for sure but a lot less scary that what you're letting run rampant through your head right now

whatever you decide I wish you well - and remember the door here swings both ways

D

Rar

I'm sorry to hear this Laura. I hope you'll reconsider. We CAN help during the tough times. You can do this. ((HUGS))