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Old 05-11-2018, 03:50 AM
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Well hello again, posting to say day 1. It’s been a terrible may... don’t even know where it went since I drank so much.
I’m sorry I’m saying it again. But day 1... needing any support out there

I do have a therapy apt today, ready for a new life
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Old 05-11-2018, 04:26 AM
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Welcome back bumblebee

What kind of action plan did you have? how were you staying sober?

D

ps you don't suck- save that beating yourself up energy for making a recovery plan

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Old 05-11-2018, 04:32 AM
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Welcome Bumblebee. I'm dusting myself off today too. Day 1 here also. We can do this together.
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Old 05-11-2018, 05:06 AM
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Welcome back, Bumblebee, to SR and to sobriety.

Stay close. We care.
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Old 05-11-2018, 06:02 AM
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Bumblebee, day one here as well. We got this!
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Old 05-11-2018, 06:07 AM
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Bumble - we all suck at this thing, until we finally separate ourselves entirely from it. These guys here have more experience and knowledge than I do.

But I've seen your posts and the fact you have a family and kids etc. I've leveraged my guilt and regret over being a drunk dad to finally putting the poison down for good. I don't mean to pick on that aspect of your drinking, but I know that it worked for me - finally being able to say that yes, I did screw up for a long period of my son's life, but no more - I am going to be sober and present and be an example to him of what discipline and the right life lived well means.
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Old 05-11-2018, 06:08 AM
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Originally Posted by Bumblebee2 View Post
I do have a therapy apt today, ready for a new life
Good. Be honest about your drinking, the problems it is causing, your desire to quit, and your struggle to do just that.

May I suggest you make SR part of your daily plan. Coming here on Day one, then disappearing back to the drink isn't leveraging SR as a support tool.
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Old 05-11-2018, 06:50 AM
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No you don't suck. Your addiction does. Big difference. You can do this.
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Old 05-11-2018, 06:53 AM
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Welcome back Bumblebee

I'm only recently back on here myself after several months of extreme binges and I'm now just on Day 3 with the worst withdrawals I've ever had! Got the audible hallucinations which are driving me crazy and v scary but we can do this!!!!!

Positive vibes over to you! I had a meltdown earlier and felt like **** but focusing on beating this now!

We can do it
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Old 05-11-2018, 06:58 AM
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Like was said earlier, you don't suck, alcohol does. The important thing is that you keep trying. Talk to your therapist about what's going on. What kind of support do you have? John
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Old 05-11-2018, 07:18 AM
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Number of days I pointed in the mirror and said "You Suck!" : 3,297

Number of days of sobriety this activity got me: 0

Not only was it a useless activity, but I have become quite sure it helped my addiction maintain its control over me.

Taking the boot of self-loathing off my neck and treating myself like a friend who needed my help works a lot better.

Best of Luck on Your Journey!
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Old 05-11-2018, 07:25 AM
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Nonsensical - Like the post!

"Taking the boot of self loathing off my neck and treating myself like a friend who needed my help works a lot better"

I'm on day 3 after relapsing so these little statements really help
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Old 05-11-2018, 10:49 AM
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Thank you guys for all the posts. Not feeling like I want to write.. but will check in later.

Less gravity thank you
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Old 05-12-2018, 05:20 AM
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How are you doing today Bumblebee?
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Old 05-12-2018, 07:52 AM
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Hi Bumblebee,

Glad you came back, and you are now through Day One. How is Day two going so far?
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Old 05-12-2018, 08:08 AM
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Hello Bumblebee...

I am only on day 4, so I am not a great person to advise...but all i can say is pick up where you left and start over....keep trying it never hurts and I am glad that you are!
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Old 05-12-2018, 08:53 AM
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It's very good to see you, Bumblebee. You're ready to leave all that misery behind - and we know you can do it. Let us know how it's going, we care.
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