lessgravity

My AV comes a'knocking here and there. I want a better name for it - not AV (too technical), the Beast is a bit melodramatic for my taste. Somehow Stan popped into my head, but Eminen already claimed that.

Maybe The Craving? Maybe a--hole? Maybe just AV works.

Either way it's a cunning and thoughtless voice that I am making a very concerted effort to recognize in all its guises. Like any bully, even though I know better, it can make me feel badly, sad, insecure. But also like any bully its obvious in its intentions and dull and dumb.

It's not me, most importantly.

I am, in my best moments, in the moments that matter, in love with living sober. Even writing that I hear the bully send up pangs of "if only you could drink responsibly! maybe you can..."

But everything, like so many have said here who have found themselves finally booze free, everything is better sober.

Thank you to SR and all the voices here.

DontRemember

I shared this privately with another member yesterday.. There are a few curse words..So **WW** https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xI3sit0JUco

Ladysadie

Pretty darn awesome Less. Keep up the good work. This is such a great post!

Arpeggioh

I call mine "Oh, Bulls**t," which is what I say whenever really stupid thoughts pass through my brain.

daredevil

I find that giving it a name gives it credence.
So I don't.

DontRemember

Same here..it's nothing more than a passing thought/lie.

Rar

Two weeks is great Less. . I think I read somewhere that the Beast is the alcohol and AV is the tool or the voice of the Beast.

Interestingly, and a bit off topic, I'm reading a book on banishing food cravings. In that book, the main character is your 'inner Pig'. The Pig has a voice just like the Beast. It's actually pretty funny. I went to breakfast buffet today and my inner Pig was squealing at me.

theVman31

Well done for the 2 weeks.
"everything is better sober"
Yes

4Thorns

Good job, Less! Keep it up!

I am back at day 21 after doing 68 days before a failed 'moderation' on vacation. And the feeling that I consistently have now regarding sobriety is relief. I am reilived to not have to wonder anymore if I can "go back". I can't, so the decision is made and that feels good.

4Thorns

tomsteve

if ya want to name it something, name it what it is:
a thought you dont have to believe nor act on.

lessgravity

I don't disagree with this thinking. On the other hand I also like the idea of hardcore disassociation so naming the AV makes some sense as well.

Ladysadie

Just a suggestion: my go-to name is "Bob", as in Bob's your uncle, or if someone cuts me off in traffic - Hey Bob! watch out! (I sometimes have grandkids in my car and have to have some manners for their sake. They also mimic me so... it's a whole lot nicer than Hey A**H***)