bluedog97

I’m sitting here having been drinking the past few days. I had over 50 days. I’ve got to do something different. It gets harder every time. This is such a deadly affliction. It’s not fun at all, I’m just drinking to ease the pain.

I have bad social anxiety and makes AA difficult. I have trouble opening up and asking for help F2F.

Thank God for SR, it’s the last realm of help for so many.

SoberLeigh

Really glad that you posted, bluedog!!! Hope that you can put down the drink and pour out all alcohol in your home.

Alcohol may seem to help anxiety but it is only a fleeting relief and, in reality, only serves to increase our anxiety.

Stay close to SR. Post as often as you need. The people here truly care.

D122y

Blue,

I still struggle periodically pretty much daily.

I have ridiculous obsessions that I used to drink over.

Now I obsess less and don't drink.

Booze basically makes folks that can't quit insane.

Thanks.

bluesymusey

Hey Bluedog,

Hope you're not being too hard on yourself as that will likely just keep you drinking longer.

I can relate to the anxiety, I had the same problem with meetings. Once I was asked to read "The promises" and I was so nervous, my voice was noticeably shaking, my heart was pounding - it was awful. I knew I wouldn't likely be able to even 'share' my story in front of a room. It feels debilitating at times, but I know that alcohol made it far worse, for me. Especially in the middle of the night and the mornings - that's what sucked me into nearly month long benders, I couldn't handle those horrible feelings. But eventually we must! However, the consequences (especially to our mind, bodies & soul) will just increase until we put down the bottle and go through the detox process.

Many people imbibe due to social anxiety but it fries our central nervous system too and just makes things a whole lot worse

Be good to yourself and please know you're not alone.

Forward12

I would contact your insurance company and have them give you the number to an addiction therapist you can start to see. This should work very well with your anxiety issues and alcohol abuse.

bluedog97

Thank y’all so much. I need to come clean and open up about my struggles. I’ve tried to keep it in the dark. Meanwhile all the store clerks know, who am I kidding?

I want to be a better person. Thanks again

time2shineagain

Good you came back, bluedog. Keep trying. Never give up. We're here for you.

Dee74

I believe in you - you can do this.

Sobers the only way you're going to free yourself from the things you drink over BD.

D