I just cant...
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I have about 1/4 a bottle of vodka left. I will finish it. I am so embarrassed, so ashamed. I’ve done so much in this life. I have a great life, great kids, great family. I sit here and wonder WTH is wrong with me. I’m ashamed to even hit post.
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Feel your pain Be. I went back and read your posts, looks like you've been at this game a long time - as many of us have, including me.
Hope you can find the strength to pour that out. What good will come...
Hope you can find the strength to pour that out. What good will come...
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Hi BeHappy..... Pour the vodka out. You can start your Day 1 right now. That's what I did! I had enough and just quit early evening. You can wake up tomorrow with several hours of sobriety done. Good for you for posting!
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You can do this, you absolutely can. I literally spent years wanting to quit before finally one day I was ready, you will hit that day. Please don't give up yet, and I applaud you for posting this and being honest....someone hopeless wouldn't care enough to come here and post that.
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You're not alone. You gotta pour it down the drain.
More than once I've tossed a half empty bottle in the garbage in the morning only to retrieve it when I returned home in the evening... how pathetic is that?
I hope you find the strength to dump it!
More than once I've tossed a half empty bottle in the garbage in the morning only to retrieve it when I returned home in the evening... how pathetic is that?
I hope you find the strength to dump it!
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Embarrassment and shame won't get your sober, but action and effort will. Sometimes drastic results require drastic measures, like treatment or something. You can absolutely get sober. How you get there is up to you.
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Originally Posted by Behappy1 
I have about 1/4 a bottle of vodka left. I will finish it. I am so embarrassed, so ashamed. I’ve done so much in this life. I have a great life, great kids, great family. I sit here and wonder WTH is wrong with me. I’m ashamed to even hit post.
Make tomorrow the last day one!
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Yes, I’m here. Not feeling the best and trying to drink a ton of h20. Thanks to you all for not beating me up. Lol. Lord knows I’d like to kick my own a$$ right now. Day 1 . Thank you all again. This crap isn’t for sissy’s is it?
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Originally Posted by Behappy1
I’d like to kick my own a$$ right now.
It took me a really long time to understand this was part of my problem. I failed for years at hating myself into a happy sober life. Treating myself like a friend produced much better results.
Originally Posted by Behappy1
This crap isn’t for sissy’s is it?
Get to work.
You're next.
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Originally Posted by Behappy1
This crap isn’t for sissy’s is it?
living life on lifes terms does,too.
its much better than living in a bottle,though, with no end to the problems that keep piling up.
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Originally Posted by Nonsensical
If you had a friend who was struggling with alcohol addiction would you grab him the day after he drank and tell him you'd like to kick his a$$?
It took me a really long time to understand this was part of my problem. I failed for years at hating myself into a happy sober life. Treating myself like a friend produced much better results.
Badassery abounds here at SR.
Get to work.
You're next.
It took me a really long time to understand this was part of my problem. I failed for years at hating myself into a happy sober life. Treating myself like a friend produced much better results.
Badassery abounds here at SR.
Get to work.
You're next.
Well put Non.
I go back to a quote by Jordan Peterson: imagine treating yourself like someone who deserves to be taken care of.
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Thank you for the love guys. Lord knows I need it. I’m really hating myself right now. Sick, shaky, can’t even be upright right now. Laying in bed with my two fur babies. (Dogs). They’re the only ones who don’t hate me right now.
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I'm locked in a cage is the problem.
I'm looking for the key is the solution.
I’m really hating myself right now is the problem.
_____________________________ is the solution.
Stating the problem more than once is wasted effort.
Focus on the solution.
Your brain won't want to do it.
It will say things like:
I don't know.
I'm confused.
This is hard.
Let's think about how we can make drinking work out for us next time instead. That seems like an easier problem to solve.
Make your brain do the task that will serve you best.
It will resist you.
Do it anyway.
This crap ain't for sissies.
I'm looking for the key is the solution.
I’m really hating myself right now is the problem.
_____________________________ is the solution.
Stating the problem more than once is wasted effort.
Focus on the solution.
Your brain won't want to do it.
It will say things like:
I don't know.
I'm confused.
This is hard.
Let's think about how we can make drinking work out for us next time instead. That seems like an easier problem to solve.
Make your brain do the task that will serve you best.
It will resist you.
Do it anyway.
This crap ain't for sissies.
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