slipnslide

If you look back at my post history you will see I am a broken record. I don’t drink much... but when I do, I can sometimes drink too much. It’s uncontrollable sometimes. And then I’m left work embarrassment. And shame. And family members with hurt feelings. I hate it. And it makes me so worried.

Yesterday it started with 2 beers at lunch. What scares me most is how much I felt I NEEDED those beers. My husband was gone all week, he was coming home that night... so it was almost as if knowing he’ll be home to care for the kids madd menlose sll sense of control over my consumption. Because as soon as I felt the depressant of the alcohol hit my system I craved that numbness more and more. I get wound up so tight that when I drink I lose sight of what’s really important. I need this to change.

tomsteve

glad youre back, slip.
something i read often is people saying they NEED to stop or change. if i did something about my drinking when i NEEDED to, i would have done that when i was 14 years old-23 years before did something about it.
23 years later, i WANTED to do something about it. i WANTED to change.

doggonecarl

Actually there isn't much of a post history. Just eighteen of them when I replied. That says something. Perhaps committing to posting daily will help. There is the monthly "class" for newcomers. Support whenever you need it.

But you have to be committed to quitting, though. Maybe it starts there.