carlingford

Hi everyone. Day one again, had to get short benzo prescription from doctor as precaution. please wish me luck.

CAC1013

Hi Carlingford,
Day 1 for me too. I feel awful emotionally and physically. I wish it were a dream and I wake up. Addiction really sucks. So full of circular conundrums. Drinking makes life uninteresting ....I drink to make life interesting. Drinking makes me feel like I’m healing myself.... drinking is killing me.
I drink because I feel alone.....
Drinking isolates me and makes me alone

I wish you the best. I hope we’ll be congratulating each other often.

carlingford

Hi CAC1013,
Thanks for reply. I live in Ireland and drinking is a social fabric of life here which makes it more difficult when I have previously quit. Now I must say bye bye to my friends in the pub....it's a matter of saving myself otherwise I will die prematurely from alchol. Good luck too and stay stong. Do you have a plan?

doggonecarl

Your last relapse you said you were planning on a meeting, something you had never done before. I assume you meant AA. Did you follow through with that?

My advice, since you are asking, is to start thinking about the stuff you've been avoiding, like AA, because avoiding them, doing this on your own doesn't seem to be cutting it.

Caramel

carlingford - make the luck happen

All the best.

kgirl41

Day 1 for me as well! I feel terrible from my doozy of a binge last night but still feel hopeful that I can figure this out. I wish you all the best!

Hevyn

We are with you both! You're back with more determination. There is no doubt this can be done. Plenty of encouragement to be found here.

Rar

Sending encouragement to both of you. Stay close to SR - it will help. We can lend more support if you post before you drink or post when you feel you might cave. SR has talked me out of drinking a few times.

Angeloflight

Good luck!!!! You can absolutely do it. No doubt in my mind that all of us can do it. Beat the insidious nature.

💜💜💜

Schizodoc

day 1 for me also

Dee74

welcome back carlingford and schizodoc - any ideas on what you might do differently this time?

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Dee74

You had two identical threads Carlingford so I merged them

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Delilah1

Welcome back to all of you posting on Day One. Sounds like it would be great for all of you to join the April 2018 class, and support each other through those tough beginning days. You can do this , and SR is one great resource, it there are many others as well.

Dee's link about plans would be a great one for all of you as well.

Delilah1

Here is that link to recovery plans.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)

carlingford

Thanks everyone for your encouragement, input, and links. I will Join the April class