been a while
been a while
Hi folks. Been a long time since I posted here. A lot has happened. I am grateful I am here and trying again. I have upped sticks, moved away to a different place altogether, gained a job I didn't think I would ever get. Put my whole past behind me , changed my number. Left my woman. Basically I have disappeared from my life. And I was doing very well as in months sober with a couple of relapses. The girl was great, I couldn't cope with it all. So I ran away literally. New town, new country, new temptations. Same me, same thoughts and patterns, same past. I feel utterly empty most of the time. New bars and all the usual temptations. Lonely. Excited that no ones knows me and I can drink.. The usual lies I tell myself. The usual people who crop up and want to hang out with me.
Feeling overwhelmed at the job and emotionally exhausted. Was suicidal after a bender and somehow managed to pick myself up. This was the third day on the job. Decided I had to reach out. Registered with a doctor and went to the drop in addiction centre. Joined a gym, and went. It is 4 13 am I feel I cannot cope and can't face work, people and the weekend. Had a few beers last night but nothing mental. Decided to come here. I need some help folks. I had shakes after last couple of sessions but I don't think withdrawl will be too bad. So I am hoping today will be day 1. I cannot do it myself my willpower is'nt enough.
Feeling overwhelmed at the job and emotionally exhausted. Was suicidal after a bender and somehow managed to pick myself up. This was the third day on the job. Decided I had to reach out. Registered with a doctor and went to the drop in addiction centre. Joined a gym, and went. It is 4 13 am I feel I cannot cope and can't face work, people and the weekend. Had a few beers last night but nothing mental. Decided to come here. I need some help folks. I had shakes after last couple of sessions but I don't think withdrawl will be too bad. So I am hoping today will be day 1. I cannot do it myself my willpower is'nt enough.
Welcome back to the real world - we gave all been waiting for you. Stick close to SR...with time out from drinking you will feel better emotionally and physically. Let this be your last day one!
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