Out of my comfort zone.
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Join Date: Jul 2016
Location: Toronto
Posts: 334
Out of my comfort zone.
Last Friday I did something, that I didn't realize would be so hard but good for me. I flew out to Alberta from Toronto to buy I truck for work, (they don't use salt, and used ones are less expensive there) and used it as an excuse for driving through the Rockies (I'm a big mountain lover) and then back home.
The whole 5 hour flight was turbulence which fueled my anxiety back into full swing, I landed, bought the truck, and the first 2 days of driving were full of panic and racing thoughts, and you can imagine being alone didn't help, Canada being as big as it is had a town every 300-400 km's. I had struggled with the thoughts at night to just have a few beers to relax. I did not relapse, and what's more I'm not sure if the saying "it takes pressure to make a diamond" is true but on the second day, for no apparent reason after days of panic I just clicked into such a calmness. At a time where I had driven into northern Ontario where there is nothing but wilderness, and lucky me a blizzard.
I made it home, did not drink and am starting to learn how to not react to negative thoughts. I squeezed my family and they bring me comfort. Needed to vent in a way as I am still tense from the whole experience, but I did it. I am growing and healing.
Day 110.
thanks
The whole 5 hour flight was turbulence which fueled my anxiety back into full swing, I landed, bought the truck, and the first 2 days of driving were full of panic and racing thoughts, and you can imagine being alone didn't help, Canada being as big as it is had a town every 300-400 km's. I had struggled with the thoughts at night to just have a few beers to relax. I did not relapse, and what's more I'm not sure if the saying "it takes pressure to make a diamond" is true but on the second day, for no apparent reason after days of panic I just clicked into such a calmness. At a time where I had driven into northern Ontario where there is nothing but wilderness, and lucky me a blizzard.
I made it home, did not drink and am starting to learn how to not react to negative thoughts. I squeezed my family and they bring me comfort. Needed to vent in a way as I am still tense from the whole experience, but I did it. I am growing and healing.
Day 110.
thanks
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Join Date: Mar 2015
Location: St.Petersburg, FL.
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Excellent job, Ekohe! The stress of travel is one of my triggers and it was hard at first for me to not stop for a couple in an airport bar or have a Heineken in-flight. Keep up the great work.
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