Bumblebee2

Well I’m starting day 1 today.
Going to dump out all the alcohol. Already went to the PCP and surisingly my blood work came back good.

Going to start seeing a therapist... into anxiety is terrible.

I know this will be for the best. But why am I so scared?

Mummyto2

Sometimes change can be scary, but it will be the best decision you have ever made, well done on taking the first step good luck

Bumblebee2

Thank you from a mommy of 2 also

Rowlands1

Congratulations on Day One....
So much easier when the alcohol is removed from the house !
I'm a mummy of 2 as well

Bumblebee2

Thank you..

Rar

Congratulations on the first day of your sobriety! I was scared too. I have relapsed before, but declaring another day 1 was full of anxiety for me. You'll probably be really uncomfortable for a few days (and that will get better), but you won't be scared anymore. Stay very close to SR. I was able to spend most of the day here. It really helps. Read and post. It's important to post when you feel in danger of drinking. Post before you drink. Someone (or lots of someones) will be there to help. Hang in there. You can do this!

PalmerSage

Good for you! You've taken the first and most important step. Stay close, and post often (you may also want to join the March 2018 class, for support from people who are right there with you in the first days of sobriety).

Bumblebee2

Thank you. Def will be around a lot.. unfortunately I know about day 1 more then I should

I appreciate al the posts and support. It means a lot

JayTee33

Congrats on taking this step Bumblebee! We're all here for you! Best of luck on your journey!

Rar

Yes - Most of us do. But this will be our last day one. You've got this!

Bumblebee2

Thank you guys. I think I have some underlying depression/anxiety that needs treated.

I’m waiting for the therapy place to call back.

I honestly don’t know the last time I slept. I just pass out and wake up

Dee74

The unknown is always scary - but you will be ok bumblebee

congrats on a great start

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tomsteve

fear of the unknown- what life without alcohol will be like?

fear of having to face the underlying issues alcohol was a symptom of?

either way, its nothing a drink will help and will get easier with T.I.M.E.

Bumblebee2

I don’t know really.. I guess fear of feeling feelings.
Thank you for replying, it means a lot

Stride34

Often times depression and anxiety is chemical and the sufferer think its just how they're thinking or whatever and that they can fix it. When your brains neurotransmitters are functioning properly those anxious thoughts don't really hold as much weight and get less threatening because the anxiety doesn't cause the same physical discomfort. When it doesn't result in strong physical symptoms, the anxiety becomes far less important. In addition to a therapist I would see a psychiatrist or doctor who could potentially prescribe a non addicting antidepressant

tomsteve

feelings were an underlying issue for me.
i started drinking at about 13 years old. 23 years later when i got sober, i really didnt know what feelings were, what they meant, or how to process them. as with feelings, the answer to EVERYTHING for me was get drunk.
i had a lot of learning to do- lots of allowing feelings to happen and learn.

well worth going through it all.