Buckley3

10 days.

Biggest challenge - traveling. Doing this sober will be a first ever.

I’m exhausted - gave a lot of energy out today. Some minor self pity going on. I’m writing it off to just being tired and wanting to just be home right now.

I should be grateful - somewhere inside I am but it’s hard to feel it. Hope to get some sleep on the plane.

My resolve is strong. Friday will be here before I know it and then I’ll be home.

Two weeks here I come. Rambling, not much to say really. Just keeping myself tethered here so I don’t screw this up :P

-B

lessgravity

Nice work posting Buck. Show's that you are not going to give in to the beast.

Ride it out. Focus on the urges when they subside and remember that experience - how they really do fade, even if they return.

Stay strong.

Rar

You're doing great Buckley. Good job in posting. You're doing something very difficult, but you'll be much stronger when you get home. Don't forget - post when you need or want to.


10 days.

Komplex

Stay strong Buckley!

Buckley3

Thanks gang. Quick flight, 90 min. Dude in front of me ordered a whiskey. Sent me into a moment of serious doubt that I’m going to be able to sustain forever. I know that’s just my AV talking. Still, scares me a bit.

In a cab on the way to hotel. As I was leaving I managed to pick up my spirits a bit. During the flight I had some flashbacks to the crash. I was thinking about how banged up and cut up my knees and elbows were... wondering what they hit.... dashboard? Makes me sick to my stomach when I think about it.

Just gotta vent this stuff a bit. I’m managing things well I think but just today I started wondering if I’m just suppressing vs handling it. Dunno. Can’t overthink it.

Anywho... first hurdle crossed. Going to just focus on work that’ll be intense enough.

O, I miscounted ... it’s 11 days today. Small wins...