Snowydelrico

I’m a year sober on the 6th March.
Over the past few months I’ve been getting a bit cocky with my addiction.
I feel I have let my guard down, and I’m not worried.
I also feel I have put enough padlocks on the beasts cage.


Should I just get on with my life without looking over my shoulder?

I really know I won’t drink again, ever.
Not when I’m old, angry, grieving, in pain etc. NEVER.

Nonsensical

For me that was the point of all the effort I put into it.
Looking over my shoulder is dangerous. It's not the direction I am going.

Congrats on a year.
Congrats on the rest of your life.

Dee74

I know there was a point where I fully accepted the responsibility for keeping myself sober and knew I'd never drink again.

Depends what you mean by 'cocky' tho?

I'm confident and sure but I hope not foolhardy.

I've sadly seen more than one person find out that weren't granted some kind of invincibility.

I had a healthy respect for alcohol and my alcoholism - just like I don't go swimming with sharks or rush blindly across the highway against the lights

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Snowydelrico

Confident is the right word. And excited.

Alcohol is a bully to me. I have a permanent restraining order against it.

Dee74

Way to go snowy - congrats on that year

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Wholesome

I'm just a week over one year here myself, and I have trusted myself to stick to my decision from the beginning, after all who else is responsible for whether or not I drink? That was one of the best pieces of advice I got on here, from Algorithm, he told me to trust myself. I had not trusted myself for so long, I had very little faith in my own ability to beat this thing, but that was exactly what I needed, faith and trust in myself.

We are all different, some people need to believe in a Higher Power to save them. I needed to believe in myself to save myself.

Rar

Congrats on your year Snowy. Awesome!

August252015

No, you shouldn't, in the sense that you slack off on your program of action.

I want to keep living in my very lovely life in recovery and at just past 2 yr sober, I am working MORE on learning and growing. IMO no padlocks are ever guarantee of my decision to never drink again, so keeping up what I do - amping up as needed, for example, on meetings, even if it's just because I have some inkling of discontent or such- is important.

I do trust myself now....but not to try going it alone as I personally need reminders (daily) of how I want to live and AA lays them out for me.

Snowydelrico

Thanks August, well done on 2 years.

I’ve gone it alone this far.
I gave other vices up in the past.
So I’m kind of repeating the trend of having a breather after battling for so long.
I think I know I’m ready.

entropy1964

For me I believe that if I do the right thing with THIS moment, the next works out. And so on. And I won't regret the moments before them since I did the right thing. Living my life in healthy ways, in all aspects of my life happens in the moment...so there is no beginning, middle and end. I don't work out to get in great physical shape and then stop doing the things that got me there.

However, I don't live in fear or regret or looking over my shoulder. The moment is where it (life happens)....not just 'not drinking'.

I don't know if that made any sense Congrats on 1 year!

hpdw

Congratulations on one year

I don't dwell on it but will never forget where drinking took me .

I don't want to sit in an AA room listening to marathon drunk stories either .

I have a glimpse over my shoulder now and then to remind myself that my sobriety is the most important thing in my life then keep walking forward.

Nice post

biminiblue

Congrats on a year!

Anna

I'm glad you're confident and excited.

Delilah1

Congrats on one year, that was an overwhelmingly emotional day for me. I have a successful career, three amazing kids, and lots of things I am grateful for in life, and proud of, but hitting the one year mark is still one of my proudest accomplishments.

I have 2 years and 2 months sober now, and I'm still active in my recovery through SR, and exercise/yoga/mindfulness, however, these things have really just become part of my daily routine, and I enjoy them.

I love the connections I've made on SR, and I also enjoy responding to and supporting those who are just starting out or returning, because that suppport was crucial for me in the beginning, and is a big part of the reason I was able to get sober.

I think you need to do whatever feels right for you, being confident in your sobriety is fantastic, you now have the opportunity to help others become confident in theirs.

Snowydelrico

Makes sense frickaflip.
‘It’s like a finger pointing to the moon, don’t look at the finger or you will miss all the heavenly glory’ Bruce Lee enter the dragon
It’s the now that counts to forward your future and make a past to be proud of.

Snowydelrico

Thanks everyone.
You are all very wise and very kind.
Nice to know the world has lots of good guys/women in it.

42 on the 9th March and I feel like a kid in a sweet shop