Pete6256

It’s Friday night. This is the hardest time of the week for me because it was always the time I’d go downtown to my usual pub to pick up drugs. I’ve been drug and alcohol free for 18 relatively miserable days so far, and I feel like I’m ready to crack. I keep finding myself looking at the clock constantly for some reason? Sorry, I’m not really going anywhere with this post. I just need to distract myself for a few minutes.

I hope everyone else is having a better Friday night.

MariahGayle

Glad you posted Pete & yes it will Pass & you will be in batter place for it!
Maybe try playing it through to where that would take you. Maybe someone you can call & talk to or just read here....I know it’s helpful to me. Remember, your not alone in this & much support & understanding here. Be kind to yourself

duane1

Yup weekends are tough, but the mornings are even tougher when you do drink. It gets easier as time goes on. Develop a hobby. Exercise always got me thinking in another direction.

least

Hang on, it gets better the longer you stay sober.

CreativeThinker

I know it sucks right now Pete but do NOT give in to the AV! In the beginning, weekends were hard for me too, but the more you get through without drinking, the easier it will become.

Distracting yourself is a good idea. I used to take a walk or take a hot shower and make some tea. Then...either read, journal or watch a good movie.

Hang in!!!
CT

Pete6256

Thanks least. To be honest, the only thing that has gotten me this far is the constant reassurance from sober veterans that keep telling me a brighter future awaits. I really hope I get there, it just feels like a long way off.

Dee74

It really does get better

Maybe next Friday night organise yourself something to do - something that has nothing to do with alcohol?

I thought that my two choices were to go out and drink or stay home an be miserable, but that just wasn't true.

I wouldn't go to a pub or a party, but I did go to the movies, had coffee dates with people, museums, art galleries..whatever your interests are - as long a you're sure the event wont be awash with alcohol.

I had people come over too we watched DVDs, played board games..the only real limit is finances and your imagination

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least

I'd suggest starting to practice gratitude every day. Start small, at least one thing/event/person that you're grateful for. Do that every day and it will strengthen your sobriety. I promise!

https://www.nytimes.com/2015/11/22/o...pier.html?_r=0

DontRemember

Yeah.. I don't go out much at night or on weekends anymore beyond grocery shopping. Going out next weekend to watch my friends horrible band play it's next saturday night and I'm already dreading it. Not because I'll drink/drug, but it is at a bar and I can already feel the being annoyed($5+tip cran/sodas!!) by that scene creeping up. I'm really only going because there should be a good amount of women and I;m just now dipping my toe in the dating waters again. Just think how much better you'll feel tomorrow and also the $$$ that won't be spent recklessly.

Gottalife

Friday night was my favourite meeting. I used to get invited round to nice people's house for coffee after. Couldn't believe they would invite into such nice homes. I looked like the wild man of Borneo and hadn't been invited to do anything other than leave, for a long time. I looked forward to Fridays.

Rar

One of the thoughts that helps me get through this early time is the thought that when we get through these bad craves or issues, it makes us stronger. Somehow it helps in resetting our brains. The next similar situation won't be as bad. Hopefully, someone else can articulate this better than I, but the next time won't be as horrible. Hang in there Pete.

thomas11

If you really want to remain drug and alcohol free, you will. The desire to not drink must greater than the desire to drink. Its rough in the early days, but trust everyone that it gets monumentally easier as time goes by. Congrats on your 18 "relatively miserable" days. hahha

AshleyB

It's normal , it's going to feel that way for about a month until you've established a different routine. It's the best feeling in the world to be sober, and that's what I wish for you. Give it a chance