Grief
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Grief
Hello All,
I'm just venting mainly. I've been so so sad and down the past couple of weeks and today I came to the realization that I'm grieving what I thought I could cultivate. It's amazing how much I didn't know about alcoholics until I got into my own recovery. I really and truly have no control over whether my marriage works out or not. The ideal image I had of a loving family has crumbled and I realize no matter what I do I can't MAKE it happen. I have no idea if my husband has the capacity to enter his own recovery and even if he does, I don't know if he has the capacity to truly be a supporting, loving respectful husband. We have lived a pretend life for 13 years and from the outside we have it all. And I have contributed to building that facade! Oh man, so much work to do. Thanks.
I'm just venting mainly. I've been so so sad and down the past couple of weeks and today I came to the realization that I'm grieving what I thought I could cultivate. It's amazing how much I didn't know about alcoholics until I got into my own recovery. I really and truly have no control over whether my marriage works out or not. The ideal image I had of a loving family has crumbled and I realize no matter what I do I can't MAKE it happen. I have no idea if my husband has the capacity to enter his own recovery and even if he does, I don't know if he has the capacity to truly be a supporting, loving respectful husband. We have lived a pretend life for 13 years and from the outside we have it all. And I have contributed to building that facade! Oh man, so much work to do. Thanks.
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