New here - scared, but resolved
New here - scared, but resolved
Hi there,
My name is Jay, it’s a pleasure to meet you all. I’m five days sober today.
Looking back, I’ve probably recognized that I have a problem with alcohol for more than a decade. It’s gotten much worse over the last few years - a vicious cycle of worsening anxiety, and drinking to try to quell that anxiety (great plan, I know!). Last week, I hit what I think was my rock bottom. I won’t go into too many details now, but my actions hurt my family emotionally, and could have hurt them in much worse ways. I was so lucky.
I woke up the next day with what felt like unsurmountable shame and guilt. But at the same time, I woke up with a resolve that I’ve never felt before to stop this. I’ve been reading non-stop, learning how to put the tools in place that I need to for this journey. I’m going to my first meeting on Thursday.
This forum has already been amazingly valuable to me, and I hope to continue to seek support and guidance here. I know I’ll have hundreds of questions as I start to put one foot in front of the other towards recovery.
Pleased to meet you all. I look forward to getting to know you better.
Take care,
Jay
My name is Jay, it’s a pleasure to meet you all. I’m five days sober today.
Looking back, I’ve probably recognized that I have a problem with alcohol for more than a decade. It’s gotten much worse over the last few years - a vicious cycle of worsening anxiety, and drinking to try to quell that anxiety (great plan, I know!). Last week, I hit what I think was my rock bottom. I won’t go into too many details now, but my actions hurt my family emotionally, and could have hurt them in much worse ways. I was so lucky.
I woke up the next day with what felt like unsurmountable shame and guilt. But at the same time, I woke up with a resolve that I’ve never felt before to stop this. I’ve been reading non-stop, learning how to put the tools in place that I need to for this journey. I’m going to my first meeting on Thursday.
This forum has already been amazingly valuable to me, and I hope to continue to seek support and guidance here. I know I’ll have hundreds of questions as I start to put one foot in front of the other towards recovery.
Pleased to meet you all. I look forward to getting to know you better.
Take care,
Jay
Hi Jay, welcome to SR
Lots of people (myself included) who have been in your situation and can resonate with the guilt and shame that alcohol brings.
Congrats on 5 days, may you get another 5 and then another and then another etc etc etc
Lots of people (myself included) who have been in your situation and can resonate with the guilt and shame that alcohol brings.
Congrats on 5 days, may you get another 5 and then another and then another etc etc etc
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Hey bud. Welcome!
I too had an incident recently. I've gone into great detail on it - not without wondering how wise that is with internet predators/ trolls and all - so I appreciate and respect totally your choice to spare the details.
Let's do this man. You aren't alone.
I too had an incident recently. I've gone into great detail on it - not without wondering how wise that is with internet predators/ trolls and all - so I appreciate and respect totally your choice to spare the details.
Let's do this man. You aren't alone.
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