4weeks dry!
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4weeks dry!
Hello everyone,
Just thought that I would share in a group and with people who have been where I’ve been.
As of just 4 weeks ago I decided that going dry/ no drink is the way forward after many years of self medicating.
I’m just over 4 weeks in.
I have to say that it doesn’t help, at lunchtime , and during the evening meal that my dad, who was a heavy drinker also, but is no longer, drinks 🍷 Wine 🍷 at both mealtimes.
So this is taking all my free will to maintain control and power onside.
I’ve had all the negative withdrawals as many of you understand, and I came thru gradually one step forward at a time.
The shakes sweats tiredness bla bla bla, have all but dissapeard now for which I’m grateful for thank god.
I want to stay clean and dry.
This is my affirmation.
My life has changed because I changed it lock stock and, excuse the pun, barrel.
Different country
Different friends including having my immediate family around me.
Different line of work even tho I’m just getting that off the ground.
So as of Dec 20th 2017 I moved and changed absolutely everything in my life.
My addictions were Heavy gambling and heavy drinking, I’m sure the two go together hand in hand.
The gambling stopped well over 2 years ago which was another addiction that I had to deal with over a period of 15 yrs, and it’s safe to say that “I WON” yes I did, by leaving that crap behind.
The second addiction was the drink, and I’m trying with all my heart and soul trying to win.
I’m standing firm.
So far.
Mums proud!
Dads happy.
But they don’t understand the true reality of where I am.
It’s kind of good in a way that because they know I’ve stopped the booze, I can’t let them down by drinking at the dinner table, because I feel I’m being watched by them, so as not to disappoint.
This is quite a thing for me writing this, purely because I can’t open up like this to anyone else, for fear of being judged and criticised.
So here I am.
All of the above written has cost me not just in financial terms, but more devastatingly in immediate family terms,ie two wives and three boys who are all grown up, and have no time for me!
My own fault I know!
I did my best, or so I thought!
That’s another thing to deal with over time.
Oh how I regret the friends that I’ve lost and also my family/ especially my second wife and 3 rd son who is 16.
I had a second chance for almost 14 yrs, I had custody of my 1st and 2nd sons and they were altogether with me and my second wife.
I had the second chance at family.
But I blew it!
Now I’m just trying my best to look after me, as selfish as that sounds.
There’s so much more to deal with emotionally.
This is just the tip of the iceberg.
I’m going to stop for now, I mean the rambling on.
It’s great to be able to share deepest and darkest here.
I hope you are all well.
HeartlyBear
Just thought that I would share in a group and with people who have been where I’ve been.
As of just 4 weeks ago I decided that going dry/ no drink is the way forward after many years of self medicating.
I’m just over 4 weeks in.
I have to say that it doesn’t help, at lunchtime , and during the evening meal that my dad, who was a heavy drinker also, but is no longer, drinks 🍷 Wine 🍷 at both mealtimes.
So this is taking all my free will to maintain control and power onside.
I’ve had all the negative withdrawals as many of you understand, and I came thru gradually one step forward at a time.
The shakes sweats tiredness bla bla bla, have all but dissapeard now for which I’m grateful for thank god.
I want to stay clean and dry.
This is my affirmation.
My life has changed because I changed it lock stock and, excuse the pun, barrel.
Different country
Different friends including having my immediate family around me.
Different line of work even tho I’m just getting that off the ground.
So as of Dec 20th 2017 I moved and changed absolutely everything in my life.
My addictions were Heavy gambling and heavy drinking, I’m sure the two go together hand in hand.
The gambling stopped well over 2 years ago which was another addiction that I had to deal with over a period of 15 yrs, and it’s safe to say that “I WON” yes I did, by leaving that crap behind.
The second addiction was the drink, and I’m trying with all my heart and soul trying to win.
I’m standing firm.
So far.
Mums proud!
Dads happy.
But they don’t understand the true reality of where I am.
It’s kind of good in a way that because they know I’ve stopped the booze, I can’t let them down by drinking at the dinner table, because I feel I’m being watched by them, so as not to disappoint.
This is quite a thing for me writing this, purely because I can’t open up like this to anyone else, for fear of being judged and criticised.
So here I am.
All of the above written has cost me not just in financial terms, but more devastatingly in immediate family terms,ie two wives and three boys who are all grown up, and have no time for me!
My own fault I know!
I did my best, or so I thought!
That’s another thing to deal with over time.
Oh how I regret the friends that I’ve lost and also my family/ especially my second wife and 3 rd son who is 16.
I had a second chance for almost 14 yrs, I had custody of my 1st and 2nd sons and they were altogether with me and my second wife.
I had the second chance at family.
But I blew it!
Now I’m just trying my best to look after me, as selfish as that sounds.
There’s so much more to deal with emotionally.
This is just the tip of the iceberg.
I’m going to stop for now, I mean the rambling on.
It’s great to be able to share deepest and darkest here.
I hope you are all well.
HeartlyBear
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