Day one
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Day one
I’ve been lurking a bit trying to get my nerve up. I’ve been drinking 6-9 beers a day for over 20 years.
Tonight things are pretty confusing. I didn’t hit a rock bottom and get arrested or anything, I’m just really sick of always worrying about how much beer I have and when can I let myself have my first drink.
I want control over this thirst. I meditated and prayed today like I haven’t in a long time. I wasn’t planning on saying anything to my wife, but she just knows things. I’m terrified that I’ll fall to weakness this time, like I have so many times in the past.
One day at a time, huh?
Thanks for listening.
Tonight things are pretty confusing. I didn’t hit a rock bottom and get arrested or anything, I’m just really sick of always worrying about how much beer I have and when can I let myself have my first drink.
I want control over this thirst. I meditated and prayed today like I haven’t in a long time. I wasn’t planning on saying anything to my wife, but she just knows things. I’m terrified that I’ll fall to weakness this time, like I have so many times in the past.
One day at a time, huh?
Thanks for listening.
Reality...what a concept!
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Welcome Tex! Day One is always the hardest...the only way to get distance between yourself and the obsession to drink is sober time. Read, read, read...then read some more. Knowledge is power so learn all you can about alcoholism. You will find many like us. Best to you!
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Day 2. Anxious, but nothing serious. Trying to stay busy. Took Ativan last night, but I still think I woke up every 15 minutes.
My biggest fear is that I’m going to start having major withdrawals. I read about so many people going through it, and I’ve seen it in my professional life.
My biggest fear is that I’m going to start having major withdrawals. I read about so many people going through it, and I’ve seen it in my professional life.
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Keep it going Texan. I know what you mean about major withdrawals. I had so much anxiety on my first day that I didn't know what was withdrawal or anxiety about any potential serious withdrawal (like DTs). I was ready to seek medical help if needed. Good to stay aware of anything serious happening with yourself.
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Day 3. Last night was rough. I was in the garage with something mechanical that I couldn’t get to work. Stressed out. My usual response would be go go to the convenient garage fridge and get a cold beer. My wife came along and helped talk me down. Bless her.
I actually slept like a rock last night. When my alarm went off, I canceled my morning meeting and went back to sleep. I won’t say I feel good, but I’m getting by one day at a time.
Thanks for the support guys. I think it helps just to say what’s running through my head.
I actually slept like a rock last night. When my alarm went off, I canceled my morning meeting and went back to sleep. I won’t say I feel good, but I’m getting by one day at a time.
Thanks for the support guys. I think it helps just to say what’s running through my head.
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