Trohyn

I've spent the whole day in bed.
What's the point.
I know what to do, but what's the point?
Just get a bottle and numb. It's easier than thinking and trying to think that living is good. It's not!
It really isn't.

biminiblue

Stop thinking!

Get up and take a hot shower and fix a nice meal. Take a walk. You'll be a different person.

If I spent too much time in my head in early days it was dangerous for me.

That voice that tells you you are depressed and that life isn't worth it - pure AV.

mandypandy

Your heads feel-good chemicals probably won't be back to normal production yet as well. As bimi says the AV will tell you life isn't worth living... without drink.
Ok so you lay in bed all day, at least you had the choice to get up and do something if you wanted to, unlike if you were hungover to hell and couldn't get up.
You might not think living is good atm, it's flippin worse living a drunken lifestyle have you forgotton that?

If you are having a lot of down days, or this drags on, or is much deeper than general fed-up-ness, maybe go to doc's for some help?

What you don't need is a big dose of liquid depressants
take care Trohyn

Komplex

Hey Trohyn. Left you a message in the class thread. Just sending more support over here. It will get better!!!!

warrens

It is important, in treating depression, to get one's muscles moving. I've had much personal experience, as well as in my family, and each doctor will tell you this. I don't think I am dispensing medical advice here. There are innumerable physical as well as neurochemical responses from even taking a brisk walk. Laying in bed only reinforces the sadness and sense of helplessness.

WeaverBird

I felt like that a lot at the beginning. So I'd force myself to walk, I walked miles, and sometimes it would take hours but at a certain point I'd start to see the beauty of the world around me. Like a moving meditation. Think it must stir up all the toxins in the body too so we can get rid of them.

Keep going, and a thousand prayers for your healing coming your way form me to you

J50

This!

It takes a while for the brain to adjust and what you are feeling is normal, albeit uncomfortable.

If you drink, the cycle will continue and you already know where that path takes you.

Vinificent

Agree that moving around is good medicine...even working up a sweat makes me feel better, believe it or not. If you are in early sobriety the toxins are still in your body. Even if you go out just to get a coffee you will feel better than you do in bed. You have done the hardest thing by not drinking and you do not want to be back at day 1...

Nonsensical

Who said living was good?
Living is just living.
Making it good, or bad, or fun, or boring, or meaningful, or pointless is up to you.

Best of Luck on Your Journey.

Trohyn

You're right. It is what it is. And it's sh1t.

2ndhandrose

(((Trohyn)))

I had some pretty tough early days, depression was running rampant.

It is important to remember that everything is healing, including your brain.

If, this too, doesn't pass, I agree, that a chat with your doctor would be in order. It was the best thing that I did for myself.

Stay the course, it will get better, you will get better.

Cosima11

Ok so why is it sh*t? What needs to be addressed that you've been avoiding/escaping by drinking?

Of course you know drinking isn't actually an escape it's a prison.

TheToddman

Trohyn,

Understand this all too well. It's what told me I should just act out 'Leaving Las Vegas' last year because I didn't think it was much use. We're peers and as your peer I wanna tell you that I concur with you being active. Set small goals and congratulate yourself for each one. Don't worry about feeling silly; just do it. You know the booze is a seductress that will leave you much worse after she's gone.

Tell the AV where to go and seize the freaking day my bro

TheT.

Dee74

I hope you're feeling a little brighter now Trohyn

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Wastinglife

I am in the same place. Only, I just lay on the sofa all day. I need the TV on to drown out the racing thoughts. Hard to leave the apartment....

anxiousrock

I often have very very depressed sober days.
Not sure what to do about it, but it always makes me drink again.
I have meds and counselling and the gym so I’m really not sure what else to do.

Dee74

I think it's really important to make an action plan anarock - there's always other options besides drinking?

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Dee74

Hows it going Trohyn?

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Gottalife

That point where drinking is horrible and sobriety is worse is what we call the jumping off point. It is usually like that just before we jump off the old ways and look for a new approach with a truly open mind.

My problem wasn't booze, it was my inability to handle life. My experience told me that sobriety had never been any good, but that booze had been good in the distant past, so when each dry spell got too uncomfortable, I would try the old remedy in the vain hope that some of the old fun could be recaptured. It was a delusion.

Life, as I had been living it, had become impossible. So as a last resort, I went after a different way of life, and when I did that, the drink problem went away.

Nonsensical

If I'm right then your statement would actually be:

You're right. It is what it is. I am choosing to make mine sh1t.

You can always make another choice.

No one backs a truck full of 'good living' up to my bed each morning and dumps it all over me. I have to get up and make it.

Get action. Do things; be sane; don’t fritter away your time; create, act, take a place wherever you are and be somebody; get action.

Best of Luck on Your Journey.