Caralara144

Hey lovely people
I feel good really good ....To good .
All evening I've been having these awful thoughts that something really bad is going to happen ... something is nagging at me saying this can't last ...your to happy
I'm really scared ....
Is this normal?????
56 days sober and I know I never want to touch Alcohol ever again
But I'm waiting for something to burst my bubble ...like I'm happy but nothing good lasts forever ????
I discussed this with my hubby last night and he was totally amazing and supportive
But I can't shake this it's like my anxiety has shot through the roof in the last 24 hours

Sorry for rambling on
I'm just scared
Caralara ❤️

Nonsensical

Congrats on 56 days!

Do you meditate?
I find it very calming.

mandypandy

Well done!
That nagging voice is your AV
"You'll never do it, you'll never keep this up, you'll never be happy for long blah blah blah" All the "Beast" (the desire to drink) of AVRT trying to undermine you. Ignore it. You are in control, and IT knows it. IT's just trying regain a foothold.

Mummyto2

Well done, I get that sometimes it's like something saying you don't deserve to be happy something bad will happen, it won't and we do deserve happiness, good luck

scottynz

I’m at 34 days and know that feeling really well. I think of it as my AV acting like a toddler and throwing a tantrum.

56 days is inspiring.

mandypandy

Just remember, any thought or feeling which could end in drinking to get rid of it, is pure AV. Irrational anxiety inducing thoughts, a classic example.

entropy1964

I try to live in the moment. Remind myself that I am doing well. I'm sober. I only get drunk if I drink and I don't have to do that unless I choose to.

aboveangel1967

I am only day 4 and thought it was just withdrawal and would soon go away. I also thought for me, it was tied to sleep.

Awesome that your husband is supportive and that you talk with him. My wife is in a big tiff over my quitting so much so, I worry we will end up separating which I do not want. We have grown children. She is the only one who would ever have me. And I love her.

theVman31

the brain never forgets abuse or earlier heavy drinking.
the reward expectation, obsession and compulsion is always there.
it can get triggered by cues or situations that set it off.
you may even get some physical symptoms like sweating.
the thing is when everyone keeps talking about a plan this is its exact objective having a coping mechanism for how you feel today.
If you do CBT this is also one of the primary objectives.

You say you feel good but have awful thoughts... your scared.
Like Frickaflip said try and stay grounded in the present.
Dont let yourself get carried away.
Control those thoughts.
Dont get fooled by it.

Relapse drinking is for me the worst of all. Going the course for a few months or weeks to just fall back into that hole its so hard to crawl out of is soul destroying.

V.
A chronic relapser.

ProfessorD

How funny! I was just feeling this unnerving feeling a couple of days ago. I have 5ish weeks. I never figured it out but I stopped feeling as paranoid. I think whoever said the AV is messing with you is probably right; it's like an abusive relationship. Your AV is going to tell you your success is just an act, that you'll be back to your old ways soon. Don't listen! And don't wait! Live your life, work on a project, put your energy towards your sobriety and happiness.

DontRemember

I don't think that's true,but stay focused and sober no matter what. For yourself. Congrats on 4 days!

DontRemember

I spent the first 3-4 months 'waiting for the other shoe to drop'. It's weird when you're so used to the chaos caused by drinking and trying to do damage control, that when things are 'calm' it seems like it won't last.

Delilah1

Congratulations on 56 days, that's fantastic. I am another one that deals with anxiety. I have found mindfulness, and breathing techniques to be really helpful. I also find going for a walk helps.

Sometimes I will listen to mindfulness podcasts while walking, and some of them focus on breathing, it combines all three.

Glad you checked in!

DontRemember

For some odd reason I hated podcasts of any kind when I was drinking. Now that's what I listen to before bed. Actually..It's not 'some odd reason'..Caught myself. I didn't like them because I felt like a child being lectured on how I "should do things" and we all know drunks don't like being told what/how to do things. We've got all the answers.

Dee74

I expected bad things to happen to me because they always did as a drinker.

It took me a while to trust that there wasn't some big disastrous catastrophe waiting for me

Hang in there Caralara

D

rascalwhiteoak

When I first quit I was very much "faking it until I made it." It was around 2-3 months that I realized I was making it, and that not only could sobriety happen, but it WAS happening.

Own it

Caralara144

Thanks everyone for your kind words ...means so much to me ...xxxx