I am not sure if im in the right place
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I am not sure if im in the right place
I have been in a 20 year relationship until 14 days ago today. He has left me for the woman he cheated on me with and I have so many answered questions. Our main problems was fighting about the drinking n the events that took place while he was drinking. I am not even sure if hes an alcoholic, a narcissist, sociopath. I just dont know but for my closure, it would be helpful to try to understand all the abuse I endured all these years.
Hi and Welcome,
I'm sorry for your situation.
Have you considered talking to a therapist about what has happened? It could also be helpful to check out AlAnon in your city, as a support for yourself.
I'm sorry for your situation.
Have you considered talking to a therapist about what has happened? It could also be helpful to check out AlAnon in your city, as a support for yourself.
I'm really sorry too broken but you'll find support here.
I don't know what makes a man cheat and leave his wife, but I've seen it in drinkers and addicts - and non drinkers and non addicts too.
What I do know is you deserve a whole lot better than that.
Lean on the support here - you're not alone
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I don't know what makes a man cheat and leave his wife, but I've seen it in drinkers and addicts - and non drinkers and non addicts too.
What I do know is you deserve a whole lot better than that.
Lean on the support here - you're not alone
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Very sorry I was cheated on too and alcohol was her excuse. I agree that counselling will help.
As a recovering alcoholic myself I speak from experience. Alcohol does make us horrible boyfriends/husbands. I have acted controlling at times. I have been verbally abusive. We've had some right screaming arguments in our house with cups, plates and phones being thrown up the wall. I've questioned if I myself am a narcissist. I do have aspergers ... which is problematic in itself but I was using alcohol to feel "normal". Self medicating.
It wasn't always bad. But when it was bad, it was bad.
I noticed when I stop drinking I changed. My mental stage changed. When I was abusing alcohol I would wake up with a hangover that lasted all day until I drank again at night. In the period without alcohol I was groggy, tired, stressed. I was constantly depressed. But as soon as I drank I was happy and alive again ... for the first few hours. I'd end up getting drunk at some point and I was either happy, or angry. One or the other. Depending on the events of the day.
This is one reason I will remain sober. For her. For my kid. They dont deserve it and if I can't do it for them I don't deserve them in my life.
I rarely speak about this, but I just wanted to put that out there. There is no excuse for what your boyfriend did. Cheating is the most hurtful thing a person can do.
fwiw I was a drinker and I never once cheated. I never understand people who use being drunk as an excuse. Even when I was off my face I still knew that I didn't want any other woman but my girlfriend. Also have to add I have never been violent towards my girlfriend either.
As a recovering alcoholic myself I speak from experience. Alcohol does make us horrible boyfriends/husbands. I have acted controlling at times. I have been verbally abusive. We've had some right screaming arguments in our house with cups, plates and phones being thrown up the wall. I've questioned if I myself am a narcissist. I do have aspergers ... which is problematic in itself but I was using alcohol to feel "normal". Self medicating.
It wasn't always bad. But when it was bad, it was bad.
I noticed when I stop drinking I changed. My mental stage changed. When I was abusing alcohol I would wake up with a hangover that lasted all day until I drank again at night. In the period without alcohol I was groggy, tired, stressed. I was constantly depressed. But as soon as I drank I was happy and alive again ... for the first few hours. I'd end up getting drunk at some point and I was either happy, or angry. One or the other. Depending on the events of the day.
This is one reason I will remain sober. For her. For my kid. They dont deserve it and if I can't do it for them I don't deserve them in my life.
I rarely speak about this, but I just wanted to put that out there. There is no excuse for what your boyfriend did. Cheating is the most hurtful thing a person can do.
fwiw I was a drinker and I never once cheated. I never understand people who use being drunk as an excuse. Even when I was off my face I still knew that I didn't want any other woman but my girlfriend. Also have to add I have never been violent towards my girlfriend either.
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Just to clarify - your husband is the problem drinker and you are not a problem drinker?
Are you happy that he has left?
To me you sound quite bewildered and in shock.
I experienced a similar situation when my ex left after 12 years together.
I felt that I did not understand the world anymore.
I did not understand how one human being could do that to another human being.
I constantly looked at other marriages and couples and wondered what I had done wrong and what was wrong with me.
I realised I was suffering from emotional shock.
Psychological shock, a form of psychological trauma, is the body’s very real stress response to experiencing or witnessing an overwhelming and/or frightening event.
Please ask for help and please keep coming here.
Wherever you post, you are in the right place.
I wish you the best xx
Are you happy that he has left?
To me you sound quite bewildered and in shock.
I experienced a similar situation when my ex left after 12 years together.
I felt that I did not understand the world anymore.
I did not understand how one human being could do that to another human being.
I constantly looked at other marriages and couples and wondered what I had done wrong and what was wrong with me.
I realised I was suffering from emotional shock.
Psychological shock, a form of psychological trauma, is the body’s very real stress response to experiencing or witnessing an overwhelming and/or frightening event.
Please ask for help and please keep coming here.
Wherever you post, you are in the right place.
I wish you the best xx
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