One sober trip around the sun - One Year!
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One sober trip around the sun - One Year!
Hey SR!
Wow i don't think that it has fully set in that i'm one year sober today! I woke up one year ago today with my head throbbing, sick and full of character defects. I used all of my strength to get in my truck and drive it down the windy mountain road to the ER in Boulder. There i admitted myself for the what seemed like the 100th time. The nurse began working on me and i felt like for a moment my mind had slipped as my anxiety went through the roof. Slowly after some time that feeling passed and i once again sent off again to detox.
Incomprehensible demorilization was what i felt as i entered the detox for what felt like the 1,000 time. I sat in detox for what seemed like An eternity and got little to no sleep. I discharged myself in the morning. The feeling of being trapped in a place like detox in itself has kept me sober. I’m someone who loves the outdoors and to be in a place where you felt locked down was frightening. Leaving detox I slowly wobbled back to my truck at the hospital. Thinking back I probably could have stayed there a couple of more days but I needed sleep and I was determined to stay sober. I got back to my cabin opened the door to see a nightmare inside. Bottles and cans lined the kitchen, the sink full of garbage and a half burned toaster oven that I used to cook a meal that was forgotten one night. I could’ve burned the place down. They are right that it only gets worse because the withdrawals that I had were the worst that I had ever had and it took the intense anxiety weeks to pass.
I began going to AA again just about every day and found a sponsor. Staying connected to recover, finding a sponsor and doing the steps was the difference! I did my 1st-2nd and 3rd steps over a few weeks but my 4th, 5th, 6th and 7th I finished about a month ago. I am currently working on my 8th and 9th steps and have already seen some of the 9th step promises. My life today is infinitely better. I have a job, a truck, a supportive g/f and have gone so many amazing places in sobriety. It’s been incredible! Don’t get me wrong not all days are roses. When i'm going through a tough day i try to recite the serenity prayer, remember my serenity is directly proportional to my acceptance and that i need to live life on lifes terms. This site and AA have taught me so much! If you’re new just remember that hope is found here. You can have a great life and you’re worth it!
Thank You!
Garrison
Wow i don't think that it has fully set in that i'm one year sober today! I woke up one year ago today with my head throbbing, sick and full of character defects. I used all of my strength to get in my truck and drive it down the windy mountain road to the ER in Boulder. There i admitted myself for the what seemed like the 100th time. The nurse began working on me and i felt like for a moment my mind had slipped as my anxiety went through the roof. Slowly after some time that feeling passed and i once again sent off again to detox.
Incomprehensible demorilization was what i felt as i entered the detox for what felt like the 1,000 time. I sat in detox for what seemed like An eternity and got little to no sleep. I discharged myself in the morning. The feeling of being trapped in a place like detox in itself has kept me sober. I’m someone who loves the outdoors and to be in a place where you felt locked down was frightening. Leaving detox I slowly wobbled back to my truck at the hospital. Thinking back I probably could have stayed there a couple of more days but I needed sleep and I was determined to stay sober. I got back to my cabin opened the door to see a nightmare inside. Bottles and cans lined the kitchen, the sink full of garbage and a half burned toaster oven that I used to cook a meal that was forgotten one night. I could’ve burned the place down. They are right that it only gets worse because the withdrawals that I had were the worst that I had ever had and it took the intense anxiety weeks to pass.
I began going to AA again just about every day and found a sponsor. Staying connected to recover, finding a sponsor and doing the steps was the difference! I did my 1st-2nd and 3rd steps over a few weeks but my 4th, 5th, 6th and 7th I finished about a month ago. I am currently working on my 8th and 9th steps and have already seen some of the 9th step promises. My life today is infinitely better. I have a job, a truck, a supportive g/f and have gone so many amazing places in sobriety. It’s been incredible! Don’t get me wrong not all days are roses. When i'm going through a tough day i try to recite the serenity prayer, remember my serenity is directly proportional to my acceptance and that i need to live life on lifes terms. This site and AA have taught me so much! If you’re new just remember that hope is found here. You can have a great life and you’re worth it!
Thank You!
Garrison
Congrats Garrison!!! This is great. Thank you for sharing your story.
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It's going pretty good. It's taken some getting used to but i am in the mountains so much that it really isn't a huge deal. Living in the city has its advantages too like walking to markets, shows and restaurants. Thanks again!
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