Turns out, I don't need IT after all.
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Turns out, I don't need IT after all.
Hi All!
I have been reading some of the inspirational posts on this site for a while now but only took the plunge this morning and joined up.
I wanted to say Hello and Thank You to everyone who has posted their experiences. Your comments are not only brutally honest but have been a source of help and inspiration to me, and I'm sure others, who have been reading & following this forum.
On the 1st of Jan 2018 I finally admitted to myself I was totally dependent on alcohol (seems strange even typing that admission now). And decided enough was enough, I needed to get my act together and quit drinking.
I have always been a 'well functioning' alcoholic, if there is such a thing. I worked hard in the day, running a business and taking care of life but every evening, I turned to wine to forget about the days problems. I drank to feel good, to feel brave and to help me sleep. A glass or two was never enough though. A bottle + was where I was at. I thought wine was my good friend because it helped me deal with scary thoughts and social situations.
But it turns out, I don't need it at all! It has only been 1 month and 3 days so far but already, I am in a happier place. I just hope I stay on the right path.
The weather seems kinder. I feel stronger both emotionally and physically. I have more energy. I feel I have more time. Sleep is not always easy to find but when it does happen, I sleep better. I have saved quite a bit of money too!
So, if there is anyone out there reading this in the shadows (as I was only weeks ago) please be kind to yourself. You are way stronger than you think. And if you are like me, it may be that you don't need that drink, after all.
Thanks for reading this and thank you again for making this forum a place for not only advice but comfort and strength.
I have been reading some of the inspirational posts on this site for a while now but only took the plunge this morning and joined up.
I wanted to say Hello and Thank You to everyone who has posted their experiences. Your comments are not only brutally honest but have been a source of help and inspiration to me, and I'm sure others, who have been reading & following this forum.
On the 1st of Jan 2018 I finally admitted to myself I was totally dependent on alcohol (seems strange even typing that admission now). And decided enough was enough, I needed to get my act together and quit drinking.
I have always been a 'well functioning' alcoholic, if there is such a thing. I worked hard in the day, running a business and taking care of life but every evening, I turned to wine to forget about the days problems. I drank to feel good, to feel brave and to help me sleep. A glass or two was never enough though. A bottle + was where I was at. I thought wine was my good friend because it helped me deal with scary thoughts and social situations.
But it turns out, I don't need it at all! It has only been 1 month and 3 days so far but already, I am in a happier place. I just hope I stay on the right path.
The weather seems kinder. I feel stronger both emotionally and physically. I have more energy. I feel I have more time. Sleep is not always easy to find but when it does happen, I sleep better. I have saved quite a bit of money too!
So, if there is anyone out there reading this in the shadows (as I was only weeks ago) please be kind to yourself. You are way stronger than you think. And if you are like me, it may be that you don't need that drink, after all.
Thanks for reading this and thank you again for making this forum a place for not only advice but comfort and strength.
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Congratulations Josie,
My story is very similar to yours, I found it crazy that alcohol had so much control over me without me realising, I am taking one day at a time as advised by so many people on here.
Keep up the good work 🤗🤗
My story is very similar to yours, I found it crazy that alcohol had so much control over me without me realising, I am taking one day at a time as advised by so many people on here.
Keep up the good work 🤗🤗
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Welcome Josie! Great Post!
But it turns out, I don't need it at all!
This realization is so important. I know I have been programmed, from very young, that alcohol has all these positive benefits. It is burned into my psyche. When in reality it is addictive poison. Crazy. It actually causes most of the 'things' I had hoped it would cure.
But it turns out, I don't need it at all!
This realization is so important. I know I have been programmed, from very young, that alcohol has all these positive benefits. It is burned into my psyche. When in reality it is addictive poison. Crazy. It actually causes most of the 'things' I had hoped it would cure.
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Welcome. Josie! Congratulations on one month and 3 days of sobriety. I was 'well functioning' too until suddenly I wasn't--it happened quickly.
I am so glad you've found us; SR has been a great help to me in getting and staying sober--lots of strength, experience and hope to be found here.
I am so glad you've found us; SR has been a great help to me in getting and staying sober--lots of strength, experience and hope to be found here.
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