asixstringnut

I did not wake up this morning with the intention of quitting drinking today. I drank all the alcohol that was in the house yesterday and I did not feel like going to the store today.
So here I am 7 pm on day one and feeling like I can do this.
My body is really suffering the effects of to much drinking.
So I am here 5 hours away from having day one under my belt again.
You that know me know that I have had so many day ones. I am so embarrassed and scared to come back and possibly fail again.
Thanks to you all in advance.

asixstringnut

dwtbd

Good to see you back, stick around.
When your AV tells you drinking does anything other suck, It’s lying.
When your AV tells you you can’t do this ,It’s lying.
Ignore a known liar.

Dee74

Welcome back Six

I don't know what your plans are this time but I'd be about ready to throw anything & everything I had at this.

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CrossYourHeart

I’m right there with you! Day 1. I don’t have any magic words of encouragement or inspiration, but you’re not alone. I was also afraid to come back having failed, but I’m not giving up and neither should you!

least

I hope this is your last day one.

Forward12

Posting after you screw up and experiencing the aftermath usually doesn't do much.

The most important thing is to always reach out before you do something stupid.

Delilah1

Welcome back! I'm glad you posted, I know it is not easy to make that day one post, I made more than I would have liked to.

You can do this though. I finally took Dee's advice about recovery plans, and made my sobriety the most important thing to me. I have just over two years sober, and reading and posting on here daily has been a crucial part of this.

Join the January, or February clas, or both. Check in with us on the 24 hour thread each day, and commit to the next 24 hours, and then do the same thing the next day. The days will start to add up, and you will start to feel better, and better.

Looking forward to your day two post tomorrow!

asixstringnut

Good Morning all.
Rough night as far with very bad sleep, So tired this morning.
So here I go on day 2. I appreciate the support. I have a prescription for antibuse that I am going to start on as soon as I get the alcohol out of my system.
Also I am going to make a plan as soon as my head clears.
feeling exhausted.

asixstringnut

milly4me

way to go six!

ScottFromWI

Making a plan sounds like a very good idea 6string. Antabuse can be a helpful supplement to a sobriety plan, but it's not a sobriety plan in itself. I would also suggest that if your head is clear enough to be here this AM, it's clear enough to start making a plan right now. Simply waiting for things to get better is not usually effective.

What kinds of things do you have in mind? Meetings or other support groups? Maybe counseling or some kind of outpatient plan? There's lots of options out there, even SR itself can be part of a plan - so being here this morning is a good idea in itself.

thomas11

Good to hear from you 6string. Keep trying man.

Dee74

Hey Six

do yourself a favour and look through this link..even if you've read it before.

Like Scott suggested, I think you'll a better plan than 1. take antabuse.
Get a bunch of other options too

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Hevyn

We are proud of you - and we're always going to be with you, six.

Opivotal

Tomorrow is day 3, asixstringnut! This community helped me find the strength to stay sober. Lean on us ... we're here for you.

Along with support, a good plan will get you through the tough days.

You can do this!

asixstringnut

Here i am on day three. I slept pretty much all day yesterday. I hope to be a bit better today. Thanks for the support

asixstringnut

biminiblue

Keep posting, Six. This is the first time you've kept a thread going in a long time.

This must be it! You're done.

Good. Take a dog for a walk.

Verdantia

Excellent going on day three, six. Lots of rest is vital. Keep hydrated with Gatorade-type fluids, popsicles, salty broth. B vitamins seemed to help me.
We're here for you and are rooting for you to succeed. You can do this.

Rar

Keep going Six. Hang in there.

Hevyn

Day 3 - that's wonderful. You'll start to feel so much better.

asixstringnut

I didn’t make it 3 days. I now realize that I have no control over alcohol. I use to be a problem drinker but now I believe I am a full blown addict that cannot stop drinking. I tried rehab, I have tried AA, I have tried almost everything know to man but I keep coming back to the drink. I am not going to make pitiful excuses as to why I drank last night. I drink to try to blot out the pain of loneliness and feeling of being useless.
This is not how I envisioned my life to be but here I am. I just can’t seem to get a grip on quitting.
The song Helpless by CSN&Y is playing in the background on pandora as I write this. I give up. it has become such an embarrassment for me to even post on here anymore.

asixstringnut