faith823

and Im that point where the Alcohol is not working just feel sicker.I just wanted to post because this board has been so supportive the last month.

Offthemast

Was wondering where you were!

Get back on that horse! I'm in the same spot. Tempted to drink but I wasn't even enjoying it anymore. I'd drink myself sober everytime or go from fine to passed out passing go and not buzzed, not collecting 200 bucks.

We got you and you got this.

faith823

Thank you and I didn't relapse 24 days I picked up doesn't constitute a relapse not enough recovery to say true relapse

Offthemast

relapse shmmeelapse. Doesn't matter. Just dust yourself off and move forward.

You're dealing w quite a bit being at home and probably feeling like you don't know what to do with your time. I can relate. I work but filling the night time has proven a little difficult. You got any hobbies? Any more job leads?

This is a perfect time for you to think about what kind of job you want to have. Most people rush into it and find themselves in a miserable job. You have an opportunity to make the life you've always wanted.

Not trying to be nosy or anything. Just trying to encourage.

faith823

Thank you very much for your kindness. I really appreciate it. I am waiting to hear back from two jobs I interviewed with. I also have great parents that say dust your self off. Just sick and tired of being sick and tired. Thank you again I appreciate it and the encouragement. I need to exercise that helps my sobriety just been so cold out in Boston.

Dee74

I'm glad you came right back Faith - you can make this a momentary blip rather than a continued mistake.

Make good choices

D

faith823

Thank you Dee you are a real inspiration

SimplyFree

It took me a few “real tries”. Meaning I was totally done with wine, but had to develop the resolve and strength to get it to stick. Along with a lot of prayer!!

faith823

Not to get religious on this board but if I get on my Knees and ask for the help magic happens. Like they say prayer to the door knob if you have to

tekink

That's actually a long time. Don't get discouraged!

Ken0331

In the end, I couldn't feel the euphoria from alcohol anymore, either.

You haven't failed until you stop trying. But, you also do not get unlimited chances to stop and get sober. At some point our drinking progresses to the point we reach alcohol levels that becomes deadly dangerous. Last time I was in the hospital from a binge I was a .38. And I had stopped drinking several hours before.


Don't be afraid to ask for help.

faith823

Thank you Ken when I was younger my BAC use to get to that. I can not rebound from that much longer. I will have to do the 72 hour detox. I will check in here and be honest

Ken0331

Yeah, I was a .38 and didn't feel the least bit buzzed, or stumbling around.

One young nurse asked the other (more experienced one), "how is he still conscious, let alone coherent and functional?"

"Tolerance," she replied. "Chronic drinkers can tolerate really high BACs that most people can't."

faith823

my same story . I went to MGH and they were shocked I was not legless . Very kind though I think they realize it is an illness more understanding. still no excuse I should be doing the work to keep sober. My aunt has been sober since 12/23/00 almost 18 years and I asked her how she does it and she responded I never ever want to feel the pain again when I first got sober

Ken0331

So when are you going to detox? How are you going to get yourself there?

faith823

I will do it at home. I will just have to get through it. I am in a safe place. if I need to go to the ER my Dad said he would take me.

Ken0331

Good luck.

faith823

Ken I just saw you are from York PA you ever go to the Lionel Train exhibition?

faith823

I will check in with the peeps here.

Ken0331

No. Have a friend who works a historical steam train over in Stroudsburg, niece and nephews (ex-wife's side) have been to that with the family. I didn't go, though.