TheDude8D

After battling what my docter thinks is a mild case of bipolar disorder, eating and snorting any drug I could find and drinking until I blackout very regulary for 4 years of drinking and 2 of drugs, I finally hit the wall. I passed out at the wheel and hit between the two trees, the cops said angels guided my car and I'm lucky to be alive, so with a shattered nose and a broken back at 20 years old, I vowed never to drink again and 36 days later I still haven't touched a drop, the longest (and will continue to be) I've ever gone without alcohol. Yet that addictive "I can't be sober" attitude remained. I took a unholy amount of amphetamines in the past 24 hours and realizing I was spiraling back in, I just now flushed all of my pills because my sobriety means way more to me than those stupid pills and I'm attending my first AA meeting in about 3 1/2 hours. Thanks for reading and letting me share this, I'm nervous but so excited to see what a sober, full life is going to bring me

Anna

I'm glad you survived the accident.

It sounds like a good plan to go to a meeting today.

TheDude8D

Thank you Anna, it really means a lot. I've already let down so many people in my life that I can't mentally bear the thought of putting them through that again!

Dee74

Welcome to SR TheDude8D

I'm glad you survived too - not all of us get a second chance.
I've made the most of mine - looks like from here you're planning to do the same.

I had that, Over a decade sober now.
Those thoughts are just lies Dude.

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