Rockfish75

Don't read my posts
I know you're doing it right now.
They're a mish mash of thoughts and feelings that contradict one another.
Is this brain fog? Memory loss?
I'm living 3 days in one. So much time So little to do
I'm not sat on that bar stool. I can't remember a conversation on that bar stool.
I just hoovered. What the hell is that all about?
I'm calm and relaxed then I'm in chaos. How?
This is a Diary of Madness
When will it stop?

DreamCatcher17

IT can take 6 months, a year or longer.
The damage done to the brain needs time to heal, just depends.

The rollercoaster will level, with time

Rockfish75

Hi Dreamcatcher. I am gonna embrace this. I hope I don't bore everyone to tears. I'm here for the long haul

2ndhandrose

Rockfish, you are not boring me

I spent the first year and better in total brain fog. I had memory and cognitive issues and a host of physical ailments.

Actually, when I think about my first year now, what I think is, I am so grateful I never have to go through that hell again!

Keep posting, keep talking, it helps to stay connected to SR.

Rockfish75

Thanks Rose
I like it here. Best part of the day is winding down of the evening and firing this site up. Sober posting. I've discontinued all other social media until I feel ready. So I'm here. Ha.

Offthemast

I'm sure this is true but it is disheartening none the less.

tekink

Just keep hanging on and it will get easier! The first six months for me were complete madness.

2ndhandrose

It is different for everyone. I don't always share how long it was for me, for that exact reason, not to be disheartening

The happy ending is that I survived and came out the other side, better and determined to never, ever drink, no matter what!

Bonecracker

Reminds me of Bukowski..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JxnwqKHWQjY

Dee74

I felt a lot better after 3 months.
3 months against 20 years drinking is a pretty good deal I think

D

Rockfish75

Hi Dee. I have a stinking cold and as this is the first and only time I'm quitting not sure whether I'm having withdrawals or it's the cold. I feel awful in the morning but as the day goes on I perk up. Let you know when the cold has gone. I calculated I have been drinking 39 years. On and off at different rates depending how I felt.

Dee74

Colds are actually pretty common.

I think we give our immune systems a bit of a beating when we drink..they often 'crash' when we quit.

Hope you feel better soon

D

Verdantia

I had severe congitive issues for at least six months but they began to lessen. I'd also cracked my head open in a car crash and had balance and coordination problems and post-concussion syndrome on top of that. I've gotten much better in my two years of sobriety; the neuropathy in my hands and feet went away, my rosacea cleared, and my brain fog lifted.
It will get better and your body and mind will heal. My immune system was out of whack at first, too. Now that I exercise and do yoga regularly I don't get sick nearly as much. I'm glad you're hanging here, Rockfish. SR has been an immense help in my getting and staying sober.

Caramel

"Washing machine head" is a memorable expression I've seen used here, Rockfish.

It does settle

Rockfish75

Hi Caramel
I'm on a boil wash at max spin Ha