kona5k

Hi everyone,

Here I am again, looking for support. I was sober for nearly 4 months and then I gave in and drank on Saturday night. I thought I finally overcame my addiction. I drank a beer and it turned into 10. I just can't control myself. I spent all day on Sunday in bed. I'm feeling better but still so mad at myself. If I just wouldn't have taken that first drink, I would feel so much better. Simple choices change your life. I'm planning to live a sober life and I need some accountability and support.

soberandhonest

Support sent, Kona! Great job on getting right back on this board, owning your relapse, and recommitting. Dump the guilt and shame - they are not useful emotions right now. You know how to do this. Just do it again. Spend some time thinking about what led you relapse and what you can do prevent it from happening again. Smile. Breathe. Touch. Feel. Today is a great day because you are sober.

LBrain

Ask yourself why you decided to drink. What could you have done differently?
Pick yourself back up and start again. You were able to accomplish four months, so you should be able to accomplish as much time as you want. The first three months seem to be the most difficult, and some people think that if they can do 90 days, they can stop anytime they want - they "proved" they can do it. Then tempt fate by drinking again. Learn your lesson and move forward.

2ndhandrose

Welcome back, kona!

It was key for me to accept that I will never be able to drink "normally", no matter how long I am sober. I needed to remove the possibility of ever drinking again in order to move forward.

You can do this lots of support sent your way!

nez

Turn your experience of Saturday night and the following Sunday into one of your greatest strengths on your journey. It is all about lessons. Be a good student. Take it with you going forward.

tekink

You can't let your guard down when it starts to feel easy! That's when your AV gets extra sneaky. It's fooled me a few times.

Dust yourself off and keep on keeping on. My relapses taught me exactly how long two months actually is.

Bunny211

I believe in you.
Do you belong to a support group in your area? AA, Smart, Lifering, Women for Sobriety?
AA saved my life.

trachemys

You need some reality. You can't drink. Ever.

Addiction is not overcome. It's denied.

JJ991

Don't be mad at yourself, just learn from it as others have said. Do you mind me asking what made you decide to drink after 4 months off?

theVman31

Welcome back.
Don't give up on yourself

Onwards.

ChloeRose63

I did the same thing. Thought I could have just one but, that lead to a binge. I just got back on the road to recovery. Hope you are feeling better. It is all a learning experience.

kittycat3

Learn what you can, then dust yourself off and keep moving forward. You got this!

Dee74

welcoem back Kona.

Any idea I can drink again as a good idea is nonsense.

I've got enough evidence to the contrary now. Mountains of evidence.

Hope you have too

D

TYG2

Well speaking from Day 14. I've drank for more than a decade and quit sooooo many times. Longest I managed was 3 months in 2007. Obviously I don't remember why I picked up that 1st drink. I suspect it was "Oh I've got this under control ". I know it wasn't cuz something traumatic happened. I was in AA, even chairing noon meetings. Beats me. I kept up the drink/stop cycle till Dec 26th. I wish you the best. You know what you gotta do now.
And if you can't be the best example for me of hope right now atleast you can be a very good warning. We're all on SR for support hope advice and learning. Good for you to post!!

EliL

It’s one day out of four months,. Maybe concentrate on the four months and go for five or more this time?