day 4 - really struggling
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day 4 - really struggling
Day 4 and am really am struggling didnt go to a meeting last night next meeting isnt until Saturday
i want to use badly want to cut because i feel like am in so much mental pain - because of my past scared most of the time my husband is sleeping he needs to sleep he not slept right for days but am unsure if i can hold it together until he gets up knifes in the kitchen i can use to hurt myself with he needs to sleep so am sitting here waiting until he gets up
i want to use badly want to cut because i feel like am in so much mental pain - because of my past scared most of the time my husband is sleeping he needs to sleep he not slept right for days but am unsure if i can hold it together until he gets up knifes in the kitchen i can use to hurt myself with he needs to sleep so am sitting here waiting until he gets up
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Originally Posted by GrantMeSerenity 
Day 4 and am really am struggling didnt go to a meeting last night next meeting isnt until Saturday
i want to use badly want to cut because i feel like am in so much mental pain - because of my past scared most of the time my husband is sleeping he needs to sleep he not slept right for days but am unsure if i can hold it together until he gets up knifes in the kitchen i can use to hurt myself with he needs to sleep so am sitting here waiting until he gets up
i want to use badly want to cut because i feel like am in so much mental pain - because of my past scared most of the time my husband is sleeping he needs to sleep he not slept right for days but am unsure if i can hold it together until he gets up knifes in the kitchen i can use to hurt myself with he needs to sleep so am sitting here waiting until he gets up
Please do not hurt yourself. You know it solves nothing.
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Take yourself away from the house and the knives, can you do that? I know its early in Edinburgh but maybe you can go for a walk, is it still snowing there? where in edinburgh are you? Can you take a walk in the meadows or through Princes street gardens, somewhere where it's peaceful.
please don't hurt yourself grantmeserenity, keep posting here.
You know it isn't going to do you any good by using or cutting.
Thinking of you hun..
please don't hurt yourself grantmeserenity, keep posting here.
You know it isn't going to do you any good by using or cutting.
Thinking of you hun..
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he awake now ans sitting on the sofa normally he would be supportive he been having problems sleeping for the last week he so exhausted
i have no one else my family i dont see them very much and i think they have there own stuff to deal with am on my own apart from here i would go for a walk but its dark and my husband has to come with me due to my mental health i cant leave the house without him very much due to the fact am normally a danger to myself
i have no one else my family i dont see them very much and i think they have there own stuff to deal with am on my own apart from here i would go for a walk but its dark and my husband has to come with me due to my mental health i cant leave the house without him very much due to the fact am normally a danger to myself
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Good morning GrantmeSerenity. I am in Edinburgh too and I researeched the other day a cafe near the meadows run by, and aimed at those of us in recovery. I think it is called the serenity cafe. Why don't you walk past and see if anyone is there.
Please take care of yourself .
Please take care of yourself .
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GOOD MORNING !!!
i go the serenity cafe i love it there i go to Cocaine Anonymous ( they welcome anyone who have had a addiction to drink and drugs )i found the last meeting so helpful the serenity cafe has CA meetings there as well i was going to go there for new years but my husband wasnt feeling well they normally have a disco/ party night there once a month i think maybe less than that they also have a facebook page
i go the serenity cafe i love it there i go to Cocaine Anonymous ( they welcome anyone who have had a addiction to drink and drugs )i found the last meeting so helpful the serenity cafe has CA meetings there as well i was going to go there for new years but my husband wasnt feeling well they normally have a disco/ party night there once a month i think maybe less than that they also have a facebook page
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feeling a little better drank a load of ginger tea helped me ground myself that and am listening to jazz
my husband is a sleep again but this time on the sofa took my morning meds early as well
my husband is a sleep again but this time on the sofa took my morning meds early as well
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