sweetichick

I feel ridiculous even writing this. I ended it for good this time. I am not part of a harem. Told him where to get off. It is very sad to be taken in for 3 years. If I was his current wife it would be divorce. Still drinking. Can't get over his ego. I feel sorry for his current wife. What a nitemares.

Dee74

I hope you'll stop drinking sweetichick. It's not going to make anything better - it's sounds like it's only making you feel worse?

D

sweetichick

Yeah I just want to kill someone.

Nonsensical

What is preventing you from making progress?

sweetichick

Anger at wasting 3 years with a total creep. Plus too hungover to goo to meetings and too shaky for night ones.

Nonsensical

What's the next step in getting past those obstacles?

sweetichick

Maybe now this creep is out of my life I can make it to a 🌃 one. Have to do something or I will be dead soon. I have walking problem s and people laugh at me. Takes about a week to settle down. Thanks for talking nonsensical

Nonsensical

People talked to me when I needed it. All of us against the addiction.

But let me ask a really hard question: What if we could become people who didn't let the creeps in our lives control what we pour in our mouths? I think it's possible. Do you think it's possible?

sweetichick

It is possible

Nonsensical

Let's make it happen!

sweetichick

Ok but how? No more idiots. 100 percentage commitment to sobriety?

DreamCatcher17

All this stuff going on reminds me of my Mother. She is in active addiction, alcoholic, but of course it's a self diagnosed issue. Well, she surrounds herself with all these people, who she claims are friends. She gets involved in all the drama of these people, which gives her an excuse to drink. The cycle is so unhealthy and I wish she could see it but she can't, or she just doesn't want to accept the fact, she's a drunk.

I wish you'd find some peace and calm.

Best wishes,
DreamCatcher

sweetichick

This isn't peace. I was having a great day till I found where he was really going for Christmas. He was my best friend. I feel deserted. I am glad he has shown his true colours. But a three way harem. How would you feel

sweetichick

I have ended it now. I am only 50. He is 63. Not like I can't get a better offer

DreamCatcher17

I would have never gotten involved, ya see, me and drama don't get along. I'm straight shooter and have no time for people and their BS in my life. I don't allow others the power to control how I feel, do, experience and so on. If someone does make me feel a certain way, it would be my boyfriend of 10 years, even he isn't given that power as much anymore. While I was in active addiction I was a different person, never wanting to look at myself, lying, not want to face the truth, spreading lies, going places for attention just because I was a sick person.
I am no longer her and it's great. I hope you can find a way out of active addiction, you'd probably have a much better life

Hawkeye13

If you get him and the drink out of your life for good,
you will find some peace and you certainly will get a better offer.

You can do it--make that choice final and stick to it.
First step is dump the booze, make some food, and after that
get to some meetings.

Have a sober Christmas--you can do this

ReadyAtLast

Many times on here you ve said you've ended it for good. But you go back and nothing changes.

I hope you find the strength to keep it ended and stay away from him this time. All this drama and drama leads to more drinking and nothing ever changes.

Putting all your energies into recovery instead of focusing on your neighbour and his wife might help.what he and his wife and ex wife are doing is really nothing to do with you. Put it out of your mind and focus on yourself

Anna

Sweetichick, you don't need a better offer right now.

You need to focus on not drinking and healing yourself.

I'm sorry for your pain.

Preciousguppy

Hi Sweeti, I don't post much here, but I read every post and thread. So, naturally, I am familiar with your situation. I'm sure I wouldn't have commented but when I saw your age, I thought otherwise. I can see that you are having a very difficult time with your sobriety and I know what that is like, I really do. Maybe you need a different approach. Sweeti, you are not young anymore. Your 50 year old female body is struggling. I urge you to do some research on chronic pancreatitis. Most drinkers are worried about their livers. I was. Now I have something entirely different to worry about. You might not be sick yet, but at your age, you soon will be. These people in your life are meaningless. Take care of yourself, before it's too late. I wish you well.

JustTony

Hi Sweeti,

You're right - there are better offers out there for you. Your number one offer is from someone called Sweetichick. She desperately wants you to fall in love with her again and take care of her.

Wishing you strength.

Tony