That New New
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That New New
Hey everyone -
New here. Been a heavy drinker (weekend binge drinker) for about 20 years and got real bad within the last 5...and as I type this, I don't think I've gone more than one day without drinking in the last year. I wake up from my sleep terrified of the damage I'm doing physically to my body and the whole life experience I'm missing out on. That I've already missed out on. But it doesn't seem to stop me from my compulsive habit of pouring just one more...
I don't want to sacrifice the rest of my future. So I'm here. Thinking about sobriety and how far away that feels from my real life but wondering what it would be like if I could do it - if that sober living person could be me.
May check in here and there. Tried an online group about 4 years ago but it didn't stick. Maybe today's the day.
Thanks for being here.
New here. Been a heavy drinker (weekend binge drinker) for about 20 years and got real bad within the last 5...and as I type this, I don't think I've gone more than one day without drinking in the last year. I wake up from my sleep terrified of the damage I'm doing physically to my body and the whole life experience I'm missing out on. That I've already missed out on. But it doesn't seem to stop me from my compulsive habit of pouring just one more...
I don't want to sacrifice the rest of my future. So I'm here. Thinking about sobriety and how far away that feels from my real life but wondering what it would be like if I could do it - if that sober living person could be me.
May check in here and there. Tried an online group about 4 years ago but it didn't stick. Maybe today's the day.
Thanks for being here.
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Glad you're here Dizzybee.
I really hope you decide to make this your rock bottom and tomorrow your Day 1. There will never come a day that the compulsion isn't there. We just have to want sobriety, recovery and a new life enough to lean into the discomfort of going against our compulsions. It is simple, but not easy. That is why people here talk about recovery plans, and many of us (me included) use AA or Smart or similar to support us in our recovery journeys.
Sobriety is the first step, and we get that on day 1. But recovery is important if that sobriety is going to be bearable, sustainable, and one day preferable to drinking.
Wishing you all the best for your sobriety and recovery.
BB
I really hope you decide to make this your rock bottom and tomorrow your Day 1. There will never come a day that the compulsion isn't there. We just have to want sobriety, recovery and a new life enough to lean into the discomfort of going against our compulsions. It is simple, but not easy. That is why people here talk about recovery plans, and many of us (me included) use AA or Smart or similar to support us in our recovery journeys.
Sobriety is the first step, and we get that on day 1. But recovery is important if that sobriety is going to be bearable, sustainable, and one day preferable to drinking.
Wishing you all the best for your sobriety and recovery.
BB
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Originally Posted by Berrybean 
Glad you're here Dizzybee.
I really hope you decide to make this your rock bottom and tomorrow your Day 1. There will never come a day that the compulsion isn't there. We just have to want sobriety, recovery and a new life enough to lean into the discomfort of going against our compulsions. It is simple, but not easy. That is why people here talk about recovery plans, and many of us (me included) use AA or Smart or similar to support us in our recovery journeys.
Sobriety is the first step, and we get that on day 1. But recovery is important if that sobriety is going to be bearable, sustainable, and one day preferable to drinking.
Wishing you all the best for your sobriety and recovery.
BB
I really hope you decide to make this your rock bottom and tomorrow your Day 1. There will never come a day that the compulsion isn't there. We just have to want sobriety, recovery and a new life enough to lean into the discomfort of going against our compulsions. It is simple, but not easy. That is why people here talk about recovery plans, and many of us (me included) use AA or Smart or similar to support us in our recovery journeys.
Sobriety is the first step, and we get that on day 1. But recovery is important if that sobriety is going to be bearable, sustainable, and one day preferable to drinking.
Wishing you all the best for your sobriety and recovery.
BB
BB I agree that it will take much digging in to establish my own walk of recovery. I've already been so very contemplative, soul searching, reflecting on how messed up my own thinking gets bc I'm always drinking..I think I'm somewhere in the messy part of figuring out what's wrong so I can figure out what I need to do to get right.
Thanks for commenting.
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Originally Posted by Pressmetilihurt
Welcome!! Have you tried outpatient rehab? So nice to get group support.
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We're so glad you joined us, dizzybee. I didn't see how an online forum could help me - but 10 yrs. ago I signed on here & I've never left. I didn't quit right away, but the encouragement I found at SR gave me the courage to change my life. I hope you stay. 
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Welcome dizzybee. You are in the right place for loads of valuable information and lots of support. Don't be afraid to post (you are doing great) and read all over the forum. I found reading about the real experiences of others a great help in making me understand that I am not the only person who has these urges/feelings/incidents. I've drank for a long time like you and so have others here. Sending good vibes to you 
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Thanks for the support. I still can't believe I've accumulated so many years of drinking. Today is the first time I saw it in writing.
I'm doing a ton of reading on the site. All so very helpful. I want to keep checking in. Thanks again.
I'm doing a ton of reading on the site. All so very helpful. I want to keep checking in. Thanks again.
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You are all so kind. I'm still thinking a lot and trying to soak it all in. Some of the stuff I've read about detoxing scared me. I'm thinking I should try weaning based on what I'm learning. Still trying to come up with a plan. Happy to hear so many of you found your way and that this site gave you much needed support.
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If you're worried about withdrawal see a Dr first. That covers all the bases - it's the safest way.
If they recommend tapering, make sure you get some kind of guidelines from them on what to do/
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If they recommend tapering, make sure you get some kind of guidelines from them on what to do/
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