asixstringnut

Good Morning.
I wish I could say I had a wonderful Thanksgiving but it would be a lie if I did.
It was pretty much hell. I ran the gamut of emotions. Anger, fear, lonely,
self pity, sadness are just a few that come to mind. I spent the day alone with good intentions of a quite day with just me and the dogs.
I did manage to cook a nice dinner and take the dogs out to play ball which they of course appreciated. I caved in to the AV and found myself going to the liquor store and buy a bottle of vodka,
I could not find the strength to post anything yesterday so I just tried to read threads.
So the good news is I put the bottle of vodka in the freezer as I always do when I drink vodka and I somehow did not open the freezer again.
It was scary and I could not help myself from not picking up the bottle at the store but somehow I did not drink.
I woke up sober this morning did the dishes and poured the vodka down the sink. So here I am starting my day 24 and grateful I did not open the bottle.
Has anyone out there ever done anything as stupid as this and remained sober?

Thanks for reading.

asixstringnut

doggonecarl

You didn't drink. You poured it out. Nothing stupid about that. And that's all that matters.

tomsteve

what you did was NOT stupid.

Anna

I'm glad that you got through that.

Linners820

Hey six,
Holidays are so rough for many of us and I find myself getting super emotional this time of year too. Some years it seems worse than others. You're not alone in feeling this way, just wanted to let you know.
You may feel dumb for buying the alcohol in the first place, but in the end, you didn't drink and got rid of it. Focus on that, because that's an accomplishment.

PinnacleOR

A huge accomplishment!

least

Pouring it out was a smart thing to do.

SoberLeigh

So glad you poured that poison down the drain, a sixstringnut.

Well done.

Hope that today is a better day for you.

joandmelandhan

Yes I had a bottle of vodka in my wardrobe for about a month and couldn't quite get rid of it (until then I did). What you did was actually pretty wonderful. Yes you bought it but then took the time out to realise it was a mistake and get rid. There's much to learn from the whole thing too. How easy it is to go on auto-pilot and buy the poison. That's something perhaps you need to have a plan for. I call them my emergency go-to measures for when I'm vulnerable.
Don't forget six that you can come here for a vent any time. This has got me through quite a few dangerous evenings (together with eating a meal, vigorous housework, a hot shower, a cry, a walk, sweet snacks, going to bed and many other things I have tried)
You're definitely on the right track six and this is part of your journey to permanent sobriety. Believe it to be so and as time passes it will get easier......

LoveForMe

Good job on pouring it out! I say a good day, none the less😊

thomas11

Proud of you 6string. Good job man.

JJ991

I totally agree, it deserves a well done as far as I'm concerned!!

DontRemember

"A" drink crossed my mind yesterday a few times. I had meant to go to the morning meeting,but overslept(was up very late the night before). So, I checked in/read around here. Once the food was done and my guests left my daughter put on a funny x-mas movie and I was fine. There were a few people drinking some wine(I hate wine),but that didn't bother me at all. I even opened the bottles for them. Watching football before eating is when "A" beer sounded good(Habit). But, My first sober T-day in probably 15yrs. Glad you didn't drink! I've just accepted that I don't drink now. I have nothing to do with people who have done me wrong/aren't healthy for me and drinking has been pretty damn rude to me throughout our old relationship.

asixstringnut

Thanks to you all for the support and feedback. It was the best 10 bucks I ever threw away.
Not having any urges today.

Thanks again

asixstringnut

DarklingSong

Well done.....To get through that close call will, I hope, give you strength. I had a few of those moments in the first two months of sobriety myself.

DontRemember

How crazy does this sound? I have wine and all kinds of expensive booze at my house,including vodka( cheap vodka was my hardcore 'go to' when I was deep in addiction). Most of it leftover from my 4th of July party and a few pool parties during the summer. I don't have the urge to drink any of it,including the vodka. BUT... If I had a cheap bottle of vodka or some crappy beer(s), I really think it'd be gone in a day or 2,but I don't even think about drinking the expensive/"better stuff"? So,crazy our thought process.

Hevyn

Six, I would probably have caved once I bought it - so you are stronger & more determined than I was in the early days. Be proud and thankful - you saved yourself so much grief and misery.

Susiesmiles

Oh my heart fell when I read the first part. I know you are only one day behind me so I'm always aware of your posts. I'm so so happy for you. Wow, you are strong!!!

HTown

So proud of you man! Happy Thanksgiving to you! so much to be thankful for

IsadoraBailey

I am so very impressed with your actions. Congratulations!