Nervousness
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Nervousness
Gulp ! I'm so ridiculously shy in performing post. 10 years sober in Alcohol and Sex recovery programmes, yet my emotions are those of a 'first day @ school boy.'
Sobriety has provided me with so many gifts-practical/mental respite/preparedness to consider various concepts of spirituality and an increased (if somewhat bewildering) emotional awareness.
What my recovery has not been able to do, is rid me of dysmorphia and the excruciating, accompanying self-loathing. Thus, my sentence one reference to ridiculousness, as I cannot be viewed.
Throughout my abstinence, I have regularly (median=2/3 times weekly) attended 12 Step Meetings and even held service positions. However, since my June sobriety birthday, feeling less than others, has permeated my thinking and I have become susceptible to an addicts great enemy : isolation.
Here I am, vulnerable/tentative/nervous. But.......honest . Something I was incapable of being, up to 10 years ago. So, with trepidation I'm on another stage of my recovery, let it be wherever it goes!
Restart07
Sobriety has provided me with so many gifts-practical/mental respite/preparedness to consider various concepts of spirituality and an increased (if somewhat bewildering) emotional awareness.
What my recovery has not been able to do, is rid me of dysmorphia and the excruciating, accompanying self-loathing. Thus, my sentence one reference to ridiculousness, as I cannot be viewed.
Throughout my abstinence, I have regularly (median=2/3 times weekly) attended 12 Step Meetings and even held service positions. However, since my June sobriety birthday, feeling less than others, has permeated my thinking and I have become susceptible to an addicts great enemy : isolation.
Here I am, vulnerable/tentative/nervous. But.......honest . Something I was incapable of being, up to 10 years ago. So, with trepidation I'm on another stage of my recovery, let it be wherever it goes!
Restart07
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Nervousness
Thank You All , those members of Sober Recovery who so kindly welcomed me.
Unquestionably, loneliness-often accompanied by his/her thuggish pals, childhood trauma and sense of inadequacy-can beat up on an alcoholic/addict.
So, the warmth of greeting from kind unknowns, was greatly appreciated.
Go Well, Stay Well,
Sincerely Restart07
Unquestionably, loneliness-often accompanied by his/her thuggish pals, childhood trauma and sense of inadequacy-can beat up on an alcoholic/addict.
So, the warmth of greeting from kind unknowns, was greatly appreciated.
Go Well, Stay Well,
Sincerely Restart07
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Originally Posted by Restart07 
Gulp ! I'm so ridiculously shy in performing post. 10 years sober in Alcohol and Sex recovery programmes, yet my emotions are those of a 'first day @ school boy.'
Sobriety has provided me with so many gifts-practical/mental respite/preparedness to consider various concepts of spirituality and an increased (if somewhat bewildering) emotional awareness.
What my recovery has not been able to do, is rid me of dysmorphia and the excruciating, accompanying self-loathing. Thus, my sentence one reference to ridiculousness, as I cannot be viewed.
Throughout my abstinence, I have regularly (median=2/3 times weekly) attended 12 Step Meetings and even held service positions. However, since my June sobriety birthday, feeling less than others, has permeated my thinking and I have become susceptible to an addicts great enemy : isolation.
Here I am, vulnerable/tentative/nervous. But.......honest . Something I was incapable of being, up to 10 years ago. So, with trepidation I'm on another stage of my recovery, let it be wherever it goes!
Restart07
Sobriety has provided me with so many gifts-practical/mental respite/preparedness to consider various concepts of spirituality and an increased (if somewhat bewildering) emotional awareness.
What my recovery has not been able to do, is rid me of dysmorphia and the excruciating, accompanying self-loathing. Thus, my sentence one reference to ridiculousness, as I cannot be viewed.
Throughout my abstinence, I have regularly (median=2/3 times weekly) attended 12 Step Meetings and even held service positions. However, since my June sobriety birthday, feeling less than others, has permeated my thinking and I have become susceptible to an addicts great enemy : isolation.
Here I am, vulnerable/tentative/nervous. But.......honest . Something I was incapable of being, up to 10 years ago. So, with trepidation I'm on another stage of my recovery, let it be wherever it goes!
Restart07
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