xod25

It's been 3 months of not speaking with my ex alcoholic vf and yet my mind still wanders back to all of the hopes and dreams we shared, or at least I thought we did. Today marks an anniversary of sorts. It was this night last year we had sex while he was sober for the first time, he whispered "I want this" in my ear. It echoes and haunts my soul.

Maudcat

Very sorry for your sadness today, xod.
Take care of yourself. Be gentle with yourself.
This will pass.

xod25

Thank you. I tell myself this all of the time, but it doesn't seem to keep the tears from coming.

Soulful

It's ok to cry. As a matter of fact I feel much better if I allow myself to feel these emotions rather than suppress them. It's ok to cry.

atalose

3 weeks, 3 months and 3 years were all milestones of sorts for me after I ended my relationship. The 3 weeks seemed to come so fast but the 3 months was a happy milestone because I did not go back like I had done so many times before and then when the 3 years hit it was like wow those days/events/sadness seemed like another lifetime ago.

It takes time, time does heal all wombs.

hopeful4

You are grieving. Grief is not linear, nor does it have a time line. Go through it and you will come out the other side, I promise.

Big hugs.

DontRemember

To be honest; I'm a bit jealous at your ability to cry after what you have been through. I've tried and nothing. I feel like I should and maybe will in time? I've taken my whatever to the gym and shooting guns. I also go to AA for my own crap and get 'feelings/thoughts' out there,but I'd pay $1000 for a good cry. I haven't cried since i've been sober almost a year.

Sasha1972

I'm sorry to hear about your sadness. It must be really painful. I think you are really feeling the loss right now, not only of your ex but also of the future you wanted. Your emotions will shift and change as time goes by - I think grief comes and goes in waves.