22 days, then I drank. Why?
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22 days, then I drank. Why?
I never realized how strong this addiction is. 22 days of basically no cravings, bad withdrawal, basically anything bad. From the day i stopped until last night it was easy as pie. I don't meant sound like an ******* but it was. Then i passed the old liqourstore and told myself that 1 won't hurt. That that would prove to myself that I have finally have control. Well I can assume everyone who reads this know what happened. I'm too mad and disappointed with myself to even face my wife. And she will be soooo supportive. FAAAAAACK!!!!!!!!
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Originally Posted by Canuckleman45 
Then i passed the old liqourstore and told myself that 1 won't hurt. That that would prove to myself that I have finally have control.
Moderation does not work. We try and we try, but the only thing that works is to not drink at all. We fight that! We want to drink with no consequence.
There is no such thing as control and just one....
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My first attempt at sobriety since I became a full-fledged alcoholic, i.e., 12 or more scotches a day ( starting within a couple of hours of waking up from horrible sweat-laden “sleep”), I went to medical detox. It was a cinch. And I stayed sober for a while, and felt alright.
I think for me a big part has been that I have had short periods of sobriety and I start feeling better pretty quickly. So I am like, “I can handle this, and even if I had a bad hangover, I can quit!”
This last time though I felt HORRIBLE with a bout of withdrawals— shakes, retching from nausea, anxiety off the charts, sweats, etc.
I think you need to not deceive yourself by how you may feel at any particular moment. You are an alcoholic. And “play the tape forward”: remember how quickly things can fall apart and horrible you felt after drinking.
But, I am there with you man. I’m on Day 3. Let’s do this!
I think for me a big part has been that I have had short periods of sobriety and I start feeling better pretty quickly. So I am like, “I can handle this, and even if I had a bad hangover, I can quit!”
This last time though I felt HORRIBLE with a bout of withdrawals— shakes, retching from nausea, anxiety off the charts, sweats, etc.
I think you need to not deceive yourself by how you may feel at any particular moment. You are an alcoholic. And “play the tape forward”: remember how quickly things can fall apart and horrible you felt after drinking.
But, I am there with you man. I’m on Day 3. Let’s do this!
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When my family placed me into the hands
of those capable of teaching me about my
addiction back in August 1990, a rehab facility
where I stayed for 28 days, they also handed
me a Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, a
Twelve and Twelve book and a little 24 day
at a time black book as tools to use to help
me learn how to remain sober each day at
a time.
There are many options, and other recovery
programs available to all, but it was the AA
program that was introduced to me back when
and has been a successful program that I
continue to use in my everyday life today.
Once I was released and on my own from
rehab, I returned to everyday life without
that safety net of rehab under me. However,
the gift of this AA program which was passed
on to me was just enough of a seed of hope
to be planted in me to take and make it grow
and become a stronger foundation to live my
life upon.
There were many 12 step meetings I went
to as well as Big Book Studies or Speaker
meetings, discussion meetings, Conventions,
all with soooo much support and loving,
caring, understanding folks to travel this
road of recovery with so I was never alone
struggling or not understanding what I was
doing.
For the fellowship within the program of
AA, folks here in SR which is an added lifeline
in recovery with lots of support, caring,
understanding, I'm never left alone or having
to figure out anything by myself because
they are always available.
To me that is soooo comforting.
I was told that after my last drink I would never
have to return to the insanity of my addiction or
have my misery returned as long as I continued
on my recovery journey incorporating all that
was taught to me using this affective recovery
program of AA in all my affairs.
They didn't lie to me but gave me hope
that if they could and would achieve the
gifts of the Promises as written in the
Big Book of AA, then so could and would
I.
of those capable of teaching me about my
addiction back in August 1990, a rehab facility
where I stayed for 28 days, they also handed
me a Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, a
Twelve and Twelve book and a little 24 day
at a time black book as tools to use to help
me learn how to remain sober each day at
a time.
There are many options, and other recovery
programs available to all, but it was the AA
program that was introduced to me back when
and has been a successful program that I
continue to use in my everyday life today.
Once I was released and on my own from
rehab, I returned to everyday life without
that safety net of rehab under me. However,
the gift of this AA program which was passed
on to me was just enough of a seed of hope
to be planted in me to take and make it grow
and become a stronger foundation to live my
life upon.
There were many 12 step meetings I went
to as well as Big Book Studies or Speaker
meetings, discussion meetings, Conventions,
all with soooo much support and loving,
caring, understanding folks to travel this
road of recovery with so I was never alone
struggling or not understanding what I was
doing.
For the fellowship within the program of
AA, folks here in SR which is an added lifeline
in recovery with lots of support, caring,
understanding, I'm never left alone or having
to figure out anything by myself because
they are always available.
To me that is soooo comforting.
I was told that after my last drink I would never
have to return to the insanity of my addiction or
have my misery returned as long as I continued
on my recovery journey incorporating all that
was taught to me using this affective recovery
program of AA in all my affairs.
They didn't lie to me but gave me hope
that if they could and would achieve the
gifts of the Promises as written in the
Big Book of AA, then so could and would
I.
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Originally Posted by Canuckleman45
I never realized how strong this addiction is. 22 days of basically no cravings, bad withdrawal, basically anything bad. From the day i stopped until last night it was easy as pie. I don't meant sound like an ******* but it was. Then i passed the old liqourstore and told myself that 1 won't hurt. That that would prove to myself that I have finally have control. Well I can assume everyone who reads this know what happened. I'm too mad and disappointed with myself to even face my wife. And she will be soooo supportive. FAAAAAACK!!!!!!!!
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Sorry you drank again canuckleman, but welcome back.
yep thats the bottom tier of every successful recovery plan.
Now you have to choose the ways in which you'll make that happen
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. I’m now realizing that I can NEVER touch alcohol ever again.
Now you have to choose the ways in which you'll make that happen
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It is SUCH a sneaky bastard. You can be trucking along just fine and it smacks you upside the head one day. You’ve got to notice and deal with the little stuff that comes before it, the changes in attitude. I’m dealing with that right now. Acknowledging it and sorting through the thoughts sneaking in.
Chances are you had some warning, it just wasn’t noticed. People don’t usually “suddenly drink” they usually start having small and almost imperceptible changes in thinking. Catch them early. Get back to your sobriety now! Make it just a slip, not a full blown relapse.
Chances are you had some warning, it just wasn’t noticed. People don’t usually “suddenly drink” they usually start having small and almost imperceptible changes in thinking. Catch them early. Get back to your sobriety now! Make it just a slip, not a full blown relapse.
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Morning SR friend......
What will you do today to not pick up a
drink or anything mind altering that will
set you back on that addiction track?
As you go thru the day facing obstacles
with people, places and things that could
affect your mood, throw you a curve ball
in the situation, ruffle your feathers, anything
that would cause you to make a decision
to run to your favorite watering hole, quick
stop, quick fix to numb the aggravation,
resentments, boredom, etc. are you prepared
mentally, physically, spiritually in mind and
body avoid drinking?
Each day not drinking is one more day
away from picking up right where you
left off on your last drink. If you pick
up the the progression of your addiction
will move soooo fast that you wont know
what hit you like so many others can testify
to.
You never have to pick up again as
long as you have your support system
in place along with your recovery plan
to follow each day.
Always feel free to ask questions on
anything and everything as you begin
building a strong solid recovery foundation
to live your life upon moving forward.
What will you do today to not pick up a
drink or anything mind altering that will
set you back on that addiction track?
As you go thru the day facing obstacles
with people, places and things that could
affect your mood, throw you a curve ball
in the situation, ruffle your feathers, anything
that would cause you to make a decision
to run to your favorite watering hole, quick
stop, quick fix to numb the aggravation,
resentments, boredom, etc. are you prepared
mentally, physically, spiritually in mind and
body avoid drinking?
Each day not drinking is one more day
away from picking up right where you
left off on your last drink. If you pick
up the the progression of your addiction
will move soooo fast that you wont know
what hit you like so many others can testify
to.
You never have to pick up again as
long as you have your support system
in place along with your recovery plan
to follow each day.
Always feel free to ask questions on
anything and everything as you begin
building a strong solid recovery foundation
to live your life upon moving forward.
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