New Here, Day 6 and it's time for big action
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Join Date: Nov 2017
Location: Oregon, USA
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New Here, Day 6 and it's time for big action
50 yo guy here, been following SR but it was time to join. Ive been a heay drinker since college and while I've been able to string together a career I've lost two jobs along the way and am in peril at my current one. I just came off the worst weeklong bender of my life, broke two lamps in my house, damaged other furniture, smashed my glasses. I wiped out in the local mini market and finally across the street from my apartments and neighbors had to call an ambulance. I remember very little of this. Spent four days in hospital where they gave me multiple Ivs for potassium and saline. My body is covered in bruises the size of baseballs.
I can't do this anymore. Ever. It's either live or die. I can't drink again. Flying to be with family tomorrow where it's safe to develop a bulletproof action plan. I have new perspective on what it means to put sobriety first.
I'll be back often, I need your help.
I can't do this anymore. Ever. It's either live or die. I can't drink again. Flying to be with family tomorrow where it's safe to develop a bulletproof action plan. I have new perspective on what it means to put sobriety first.
I'll be back often, I need your help.
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Join Date: Apr 2006
Location: 45th Parallel, Michigan
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Yep, you're done; you can't do this anymore.
Those are the thoughts that finally got me sober after many attempts; the key, for me, is never forgetting how you're feeling right now (or better yet, how you were feeling in the hospital sobering up.) The memory of my near-seizure, trying to get the mug up to my mouth through violent shaking, was my moment of clarity: I can't do this anymore!
And neither can you. I'm glad you posted, and I wish you the best.
Those are the thoughts that finally got me sober after many attempts; the key, for me, is never forgetting how you're feeling right now (or better yet, how you were feeling in the hospital sobering up.) The memory of my near-seizure, trying to get the mug up to my mouth through violent shaking, was my moment of clarity: I can't do this anymore!
And neither can you. I'm glad you posted, and I wish you the best.
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Welcome, Pinnacle. Heartfelt and knowledgable support to be had here, as you know. I am very impressed you are taking yourself to a safe place to deal with early days. Very very well done. Please let us know how it goes. I am still what anyone would call early days, and others taking “big action” inspires, teaches, and humbles me. Thanks.
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Tip: building on Arp’s comment...you could take a few selfies before those bruises fade, for future reference. I took pics of my face first thing in the morning sometime in last week of my drinking. I dont want to every look so sick and hopeless and defeated again. The eyes. God. I have not had to refer to them...but I know I have them. 
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Originally Posted by BixBees505 
Tip: building on Arp’s comment...you could take a few selfies before those bruises fade, for future reference. I took pics of my face first thing in the morning sometime in last week of my drinking. I dont want to every look so sick and hopeless and defeated again. The eyes. God. I have not had to refer to them...but I know I have them.
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