Babs78756

Married mother of two. I've had 3 very successful years of sobriety and in the last 9 Months I've had several slips. I told my husband immediately afterward. We've moved back to my husbands hometown and there's a big party/social element here. I've found it very easy to sneak drinks at events without anyone knowing and since then it's happening more and more. I hate that I do this. I'm always miserable the next day. Yet, here I am on the couch nursing a hangover after sneaking drinks throughout a dinner party last night. I haven't told my husband. I haven't gone to any AA meetings here as it's a small community and I'm worried people will see me... but I'd rather them see me there than a hot mess being carried out of a restaurant. I don't know how to recommit to my sobriety in a new and different way or do I just go back to what worked before? I'm feeling a little lost and frustrated with myself.... anyone have anything they offer advice? Encouragement? Similar experiences?

soberclover

After a looooong relapse, I ended up going back to AA. I went back because I needed to find people who were like me and who I could relate to. It's important for me to have my people --those women in the program that I can contact that will help me out.

I'm finding "this time around" in my recovery, there are many things that are similar to the 13 years of sobriety that I had before. Some things are different. And that makes sense because with the passing of time...I am different and so are my life circumstances. I urge you to find your support network whatever that looks like as this recovery journey is not done well alone.

anxiousrock

I know it is hard to go to AA in a small community. That was the number one reason i was so against it at first....I feared seeing someone i know.
But i gave that first meeting a try and immediately felt support.
People there will understand you, not judge you.
Could you try some online meetings out?

Hats

Recommit, get to a meeting asap. You'll be glad you did. So what if people see you going. It's about your recovery, that should come 1st. Acceptance comes to mind.

Dee74

Hi Babs

have you thought any about your recovery plan?

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
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