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Back again
Well, back again after several failed attempts at sobriety. I continue to keep fooling myself into thinking that I can control my drinking, but I can't. This has been made quite evident time and time again. I don't like who I am when I am drinking and don't like how others see me. I need to change this behavior. I've always felt my very best during periods of sobriety. Day 1...thankfully, I pulled myself out of bed and made it into work today. I am so glad that I have this community to return to. I am already looking forward to waking up sober tomorrow morning.
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I hear ya. I am on Day 3 after a 3 day beer binge. This has got to stop. I am losing my days from being under the influence. Just don't know what I did or where the time went. So scary. Now, I am fighting for some peace of mind. It has been 50 hours since my last guzzle of a can of warm beer which was too foamy and I spit it all over me floor. So shameful. So not the me I want to be. I am here for you. We can do this together.♡CR
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Yes we can! I'm so excited to get started on this journey. The binges are horrendous. And, the not remembering...my s/o informed me that recently, I've been verbally abusive to him while intoxicated, which really hurts. He's actually been sober for almost 4 years himself. I can't believe he continues to put up with me when I'm like that. I'm actually excited to go home from work today and not drink...as weird as that sounds.
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I have a very active 2 year old, which is a good thing 
Make a nice dinner for the 3 of us...I was thinking of doing some yoga (when sober, I'm into fitness), but am kind of tired, so may opt to hit the hay early. What have you been doing to keep yourself busy during downtime when you would typically be drinking?
Make a nice dinner for the 3 of us...I was thinking of doing some yoga (when sober, I'm into fitness), but am kind of tired, so may opt to hit the hay early. What have you been doing to keep yourself busy during downtime when you would typically be drinking?
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I quilt and sew. Making Holiday table toppers. I have some pics on my home page. I use my elliptical and usually bike after that to get fresh air. But, since I drank I think I will wait a few more days. I love to cook and garden. Right now I am decorating for Halloween. Just stuff from the basement and some fresh pumpkins. I live in Wisconsin where there are lots of farms.
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Thanks Hevyn and Dee! To answer your question Dee, I plan to be significantly more active on SR than I have been in the past. I haven't gone too far past that at this point, so will be formulating a plan in the coming days.
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