anxiousrock

Almost 1.5 months sober.
Tonight I went through a business meeting with free drinks and everyone at my table drinking but me.
Was also recently my 5 year anniversary and I really wanted champagne to celebrate.
It was so hard to get through these things, and I don't feel any better about myself.

Jules714

I guess my thoughts are you don't have to feel anything about it. I mean, it'd be a bonus if you felt proud of yourself, but that's up to you.
All you need to do is not drink. ✓
For what it's worth, I'm proud of you. Hopefully you'll get on board soon.
Jules

melki

You should be so proud! Well done! What did you drink instead? I usually go with a soda, or sparkling water, or juice/seltzer mix. My celebration drink is root beer float.

JD

You did a great job. And you should be proud of what you did. 1.5 months is early and it does get a lot easier to attend these types of events and not feel like you need to drink. We just celebrated your 8th wedding anniversary tonight and it never crossed my mind to have a drink. I'm just over two years sober as a point of reference.

AshleyB

You did a great job! I know these times can be hard but you made it through so pat yourself on the back!

Dee74

Hi Anarock

the bottom line is, fair or not, alcohol affects us differently than it does other people.

One drink for someone else could be the start of a long binge for us.

The more I stay sober the more I see I do not need alcohol to fit in or have fun, and I can certainly celebrate without it.

I hope you'll come to see that too.

Give sobriety a chance

Sober369

It helps me a lot to remember what it was really like for me, drinking. 'A' glass of champagne was not at all what I wanted, I wanted lots to drink, enough to make me act stupid and be sick the next day. I wrote it out, things it did to me, times that were really bad. Also I wrote out the ways I know I'm an alcoholic.
It is sometimes hard for me to have lost alcohol. Even though it was so bad for me, and hurt me in so many ways, it was what I knew. It was what I turned to for release, celebration, and lots more. But, it was killing me. And now it's not, and I love that.
I hope you get past this, that it's just a phase of your recovery, and soon you start feeling great about feeling better.

least

It took me several months sober, and lots of gratitude, before I felt at all 'settled' in my sobriety. Give yourself more time. It gets better.

theVman31

1.5 months is nice.
Bet generally you feel better than when you were boozing... ?
Business meetings dinner and work trips are tough for us all...especially after 1.5 months.
No one needs alcohol to celebrate its just cliché society and tv all that.

Well done on 1.5 months.
We have the same sober time

elnotcho

I feel you. I understand. You lived life as it should be, on your terms. Lots of decisions will come up in our lives. A decision to not drink and sticking to it gives us all hope. We do not have to struggle over alcohol anymore. Great inspiration.

Zanna

Well done Bottom line is, you might not feel good about yourself, for now...but you'd feel a whole lot worse if you had a drink.
It gets easier, I promise

CRRHCC

Think again. You are not conformed but transformed. That is empowering! Major congrats.

DontRemember

You may not feel better about yourself now,but you will in the future. Does your not feeling good kinda feel like a pouting child that didn't get it's way? That was me when I was newly sober(still tweaking my plan(s) as needed) and hanging around others drinking 'freely'.

Dee74

How are things today Anarok?

D

anxiousrock

I feel better physically. No nausea etc. Mentally I feel less anxious but way way way more depression. I never felt this horrible drunk.

anxiousrock

I'm still upset but taking a quiet night to read a book I got at AA "came to believe".
I went to the gym and now, trying super hard to relax.