Andagain

Hey there soberfriends.

So I'm back on Day one again, things haven't been too bad to be honest. I've taken what I've done seriously but I've not spent the day sitting around beating myself up because in all honestly I am emotionally completely spent and I just don't think making myself feel worse will be constructive.

It's certainly not like I've hit reset and I'm bac in the same condition as when I quit a few months ago, I felt a little tired and had heartburn and that was pretty much it. In a way that's reassuring that all the work I've done hasn't simply unraveled overnight, that although I'm on Day one, I'm not on step one in terms of dealing with my issues.

I need to take things day by day to deal with all the terrible events that have happened recently, I feel like I have been beaten up from the inside out. So, like any other pain I need to try and rest up and rehab it like a torn muscle.

I'm hoping some kind of sense for these things will come to me in time because right now I just can't seem to rationalise what's going on around me.

Thanks to everyone for their kind words.

Stronger2017

I'm glad you got back in touch. Just do whatever it takes to get through this day one and move forward from there. Good luck😀

Anna

I'm glad you're back and working on your recovery again.

Is there something you could add to your recovery plan to make sure this doesn't happen again?

Soberandhealthy

Im glad you are back again don't stop fighting please you give me hope

Dee74

The terminal illness of someone close to us defies rationalisation or even understanding a lot of the time.

I just had to accept what was and do my best with that, including my duty to stay sober.

D.

Andagain

I've been thinking a lot about that, I'm trying to in general live a more full life and not just let myself waste away on the sofa all day, getting more frustrated and anxious, so that's one thing.

AshleyB

Glad you're back! Thanks for the honesty you got this!