OntheComeback

Hi everyone. I am M, and I am trying to make a comeback to being a whole person. I have been drinking for years, but have been drinking almost daily for about 6 months. I am going to be needing you guys a lot.

In a nutshell.....I can't drink anymore. Like never. I have kids, a fantastic man, a great jobs, a handful of good friends, and family. I think I used all the good things I have to keep myself in denial about my drinking. I would say things like, "I work hard, I deserve this drink." What had signaled to me that I need to stop, is anxiety filled hangovers, self-loathing, and aging considerably in the last few months. I have a problem.

Yesterday was absolutely horrific. I felt like I was going to have a heart attack or stroke. I had to actually leave work because of it.

I am super fortunate because I have my husband, and my sister to help keep me accountable. I was very good at hiding the amount that I drink, and I am proud of myself because I told them the truth. I feel empowered.

Today I still feel a bit of a brain fog, but its not unmanageable. I am hopeful I will not have too much of a withdrawal.

Thanks for allowing me to join the group. We are all trying to slay the same dragon, and there is strength in numbers ❤

Linners820

Hi, it's nice to meet you. I'm currently nursing an awful anxiety-filled hangover, and once again resolving that this absolutely needs to stop. I also have kept my drinking a secret from pretty much everyone, save for my therapist who I was finally honest with about it last week. I felt a lot of shame in admitting it but that step had to be taken. Let's do this together.

OntheComeback

Hi Lin, I am so sorry you are feeling so sick. That feeling is the catalyst I am using to stay clean. Granted, it has only been a very short time, the fact is that I want to live.

What got me through yesterday wad cold water, meditation music for anxiety, and being home. I am in this with you! Hang in there. I am hoping tomorrow is a better day for you.

january161992

welcome all !

our choice is between miserable unhappy drunken drinking or not taking 1 drink

its the 1st drink that gets us drunk not the 10th or 20th

we cant get drunk if we dont take that 1st drink

and

IT GETS BETTER !!!

OntheComeback

Thank you, January ❤

That is really great advice.

SimplyFree

Glad you are here with us. This is a great community to work on sobriety!!

Renvate

Being about a week in for me, and it's good to be free from the emotions/thoughts of day 1

Your gonna love it when the deep sleep sets in again.

Hevyn

It's wonderful to have you with us, M. I'm so glad you've made the big decision to change your life. We're here to encourage & support you - we know you can do it.

january161992

how are you today OntheComeback ?

its your job to let us know how youre doing

its our job to be supportive of you helping yourself which in turn helps us