I'm not sure I can do this
Member
Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: Atlanta
Posts: 2,872
Was the same here. Drink until I felt better and thinking I had it licked. I could handle it this time. Nope. Then, realizing after I felt better again I would drink for days into oblivion.
Then at the end realizing I was hopeless and helpless just waiting to feel a little better and drinking for days on end.
Game was over. I couldn't even fool myself into thinking I could stop drinking so I gave in and just drank.
This went on for ten years at the end. Got to the point where I had to drink to feel good enough to start another bender.
What a life.
I finally gave in one horrendously hungover Sunday morning and called AA. I was in bad shape. Really bad.
I managed to make it to the diner, through the paralyzing fear and anxiety, where I met a man who explained to me he drank the same way. Worse.
My life was changed. It didn't happen overnight. There were plenty of slips. Bad ones. But I finally went to a meeting. Here were twenty people who understood me and drank much the same as me and were solving their problem with drink. I was moved and drinking was never the same.
It's been six years nine months since this drunk has had a drink.
Help is out there in different ways. I came here wounded, too.
You're reaching out for help and I'm just telling you my story thinking maybe you can relate and there is hope. I hope you find it. It's waiting for you.
Then at the end realizing I was hopeless and helpless just waiting to feel a little better and drinking for days on end.
Game was over. I couldn't even fool myself into thinking I could stop drinking so I gave in and just drank.
This went on for ten years at the end. Got to the point where I had to drink to feel good enough to start another bender.
What a life.
I finally gave in one horrendously hungover Sunday morning and called AA. I was in bad shape. Really bad.
I managed to make it to the diner, through the paralyzing fear and anxiety, where I met a man who explained to me he drank the same way. Worse.
My life was changed. It didn't happen overnight. There were plenty of slips. Bad ones. But I finally went to a meeting. Here were twenty people who understood me and drank much the same as me and were solving their problem with drink. I was moved and drinking was never the same.
It's been six years nine months since this drunk has had a drink.
Help is out there in different ways. I came here wounded, too.
You're reaching out for help and I'm just telling you my story thinking maybe you can relate and there is hope. I hope you find it. It's waiting for you.
Sober since 10th April 2012
Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Perth, Western Australia
Posts: 6,047
Press, do you have a plan to divert yourself and handle the cravings? Wanting something is good, but planning how to achieve it is better. After all, no-one's forcing this on you; it's your choice.
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Oakland
Posts: 561
Originally Posted by FeelingGreat 
Press, do you have a plan to divert yourself and handle the cravings? Wanting something is good, but planning how to achieve it is better. After all, no-one's forcing this on you; it's your choice.
Member
Join Date: Jul 2017
Posts: 132
You'll need something else to drink if you're like me. How about green tea? I've seen some very very happy people whose hobby is relaxing with a green tea they've never tried before. Try a new one every day, and keep a journal of what it was, and how it tasted. Bonus - it's great for your stomach.
Or, think of something you want to buy, and how much it costs. Work out how many days of not drinking equals that price. Do the time, earn the reward.
Good luck!
Or, think of something you want to buy, and how much it costs. Work out how many days of not drinking equals that price. Do the time, earn the reward.
Good luck!
quat
Join Date: Jul 2013
Location: terra (mostly)firma
Posts: 4,823
Originally Posted by Pressmetilihurt
I have my kid this weekend. I'm not going to drink.
You know you can not drink, (not can't drink but can not drink), add the fact that you can not drink even if you want to, the AV has you convinced that just because IT wants to drink so do You, if You don't want to ,You don't have to, IT just makes it feel that way.
Rootin for ya
Administrator
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,432
when your kids goes home, you're gonna need something Press - probably a good time to think about it now
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ery-plans.html (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)
D
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ery-plans.html (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)
D
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
