Fell off but..
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Fell off but..
Hi All,
So I haven't posted in a while. On August 22nd, after full 15 weeks, i.e. 105 days, I fell off. I had a terrible day and then some guys invited me to dinner, and as soon as I sat at the table, I asked for a drink in a stupor, viciously, determined to numb the pain. And that led to many more as you can imagine.
The three weeks since have been, well, not dry but I have been able to avoid another binge at least. Some dry days, some more wet ones.
It's very difficult to get back up right away, some of us do it, but these 105 days were the longest I had gone over 3 decades and I just didn't have the strength to stop again the next day.
Anyway, I was reading here today and I saw that EndoftheDay fell of too. I used to get a lot of strength from his posts because we quit one day after another back in May. This made me more sad, but also gave me great strength as he seems to have gotten right back on.
I am on day 3 tomorrow.
Hope you are all well.
T.
So I haven't posted in a while. On August 22nd, after full 15 weeks, i.e. 105 days, I fell off. I had a terrible day and then some guys invited me to dinner, and as soon as I sat at the table, I asked for a drink in a stupor, viciously, determined to numb the pain. And that led to many more as you can imagine.
The three weeks since have been, well, not dry but I have been able to avoid another binge at least. Some dry days, some more wet ones.
It's very difficult to get back up right away, some of us do it, but these 105 days were the longest I had gone over 3 decades and I just didn't have the strength to stop again the next day.
Anyway, I was reading here today and I saw that EndoftheDay fell of too. I used to get a lot of strength from his posts because we quit one day after another back in May. This made me more sad, but also gave me great strength as he seems to have gotten right back on.
I am on day 3 tomorrow.
Hope you are all well.
T.
Hi Tankersfull and welcome back!
I drank again after 99 days on 29th August and am now back on day 44. It took a while to get my confidence back and I did kind of of mourn the loss of my hard earned days. But slowly it's coming back and I'm feeling much stronger again. I dont know about you but there was zero enjoyment for me. I almost had to force it down but there you go it's done and we move on.
Great job coming back!
I drank again after 99 days on 29th August and am now back on day 44. It took a while to get my confidence back and I did kind of of mourn the loss of my hard earned days. But slowly it's coming back and I'm feeling much stronger again. I dont know about you but there was zero enjoyment for me. I almost had to force it down but there you go it's done and we move on.
Great job coming back!
I'm glad you made it back tankersfull.
I find a recovery plan can really help me stay focused - especially on those bad days.
Give this a read - you can make your recovery both resilient and enduring and not dependent on good or bad days
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
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I find a recovery plan can really help me stay focused - especially on those bad days.
Give this a read - you can make your recovery both resilient and enduring and not dependent on good or bad days
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
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Sorry to hear that, Tankers. I got sober quite close to you and EndOf.
But you're still here and still fighting this thing and if you can do that sober time once, you can do it again. Big hugs Weev
But you're still here and still fighting this thing and if you can do that sober time once, you can do it again. Big hugs Weev
So glad you are back. Your three days will build and build and you will never regret it. As Anna said, you have learned more about recovery.
I "fell off" in May and am not looking back. I came to the conclusion that the pain of drinking was far worse than any pain that life could dish up.
I "fell off" in May and am not looking back. I came to the conclusion that the pain of drinking was far worse than any pain that life could dish up.
Don't quit quitting.
I had a similar episode a couple of weeks ago. Conscious decision that lasted about 5 days. Glad I snapped out of it before it got out of control. I put myself back to day 1. It was pretty miserable, but I'm back in the saddle.
I had a similar episode a couple of weeks ago. Conscious decision that lasted about 5 days. Glad I snapped out of it before it got out of control. I put myself back to day 1. It was pretty miserable, but I'm back in the saddle.
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