DontRemember

I've been having a lot of thoughts the past couple of weeks to "before" I picked up. I was young,happy,LIVING! Then I think back to when I 'started', I see dark sadness. A thunderstorm rolling in, if you will. Progress maybe? I'm a few days past 9 months sober,had a breakup and life is 'good?'. I just still have the feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop(I'm also co-dependant apparently..yes!) . It's strange and almost like I still don't trust myself anymore? I'm looking at that as a good thing for now,but I just don't trust myself yet.. I know; time and working my plan are the thing to do,but just a weird feeling...Anyways...Hope everyone is well!

biminiblue

Good thing about weird thoughts is that they always pass.

Hang on. We get it!

DontRemember

Thanks! Yea.. I've "tried" enough and feel very solid with my recovery plan. It's just thoughts of the past that my drunk/clouded mind didn't want to acknowledge and I do know that now. Thank God,or whatever you want to say, for support! It really is mandatory in dealing with this.

biminiblue

One of the good things about sustained abstinence is being able to make some sense of the past and put things in perspective; make peace with them. I didn't start drinking in a vacuum, and I didn't keep drinking in one, either. There is a lot to unravel - and being in my right mind is useful for that.

PhoenixJ

counseling- and a psychologist- doing CBT stuff helps.