Therapy tonight
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You're in my thoughts daily Chill.,
hoping relief comes soon for ya buddy.
Keeping moving forward with positive
thoughts and stay connected with us
for awesome support, care, understanding,
luv and compassion.
hoping relief comes soon for ya buddy.
Keeping moving forward with positive
thoughts and stay connected with us
for awesome support, care, understanding,
luv and compassion.
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Thank you so much for the support guys!
I really hope this works, you wouldn't believe the crazy thoughts im getting in my head, I know this is more than likely very common but I just can't help that im the worst case ever!
Oh well lets see what happens!
I really hope this works, you wouldn't believe the crazy thoughts im getting in my head, I know this is more than likely very common but I just can't help that im the worst case ever!
Oh well lets see what happens!
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Originally Posted by Jules714 
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You are going to do great!
Really happy you will get some more healing underway?
Plus day 59 or 60 right? Yayyyy!
😃 Jules
You are going to do great!
Really happy you will get some more healing underway?
Plus day 59 or 60 right? Yayyyy!
😃 Jules
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Originally Posted by Dee74
I hope it goes well and is everything you hope it will be
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Originally Posted by Chilledice
Speaking with my therapist for the first time on skype tonight.
Hopefully this is the start of my recovery.
Hopefully this is the start of my recovery.
however, you already started your recovery.
recovery cant start without acknowledging a problem,then deciding to do something about it.
imo, its the next step. good on ya!! youve done some serious trudging AND havent drank over any of it!
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Originally Posted by tomsteve
cool beans!!
however, you already started your recovery.
recovery cant start without acknowledging a problem,then deciding to do something about it.
imo, its the next step. good on ya!! youve done some serious trudging AND havent drank over any of it!
however, you already started your recovery.
recovery cant start without acknowledging a problem,then deciding to do something about it.
imo, its the next step. good on ya!! youve done some serious trudging AND havent drank over any of it!
it scares me to tell them about suicide and all that stuff because I don't want the damn mental doctors locking me away lol
should I tell him anyway?
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Don't be scared to tell them about
suicide thoughts. That doesn't mean
we are crazy. In fact, because of my,
and I don't like to use the word suicide,
but in all reality and in my deep dark
sickness with addiction, I was looking
for instant relief to end what I call as
a failure from trying to control my
drinking and doing things I wasn't
suppose to be doing. Staying out late
at night knowing I had family safe
and sound at home. I left them not
even caring if they were worried
about my wear abouts at wee hours
of the morning. Yes, I was selfish and
sick.
Anyway, I did take a had full of pills
downed with alcohol before my babies
couldn't wake me the next morning.
Thank God my attempt to sleep forever
didn't happen and that family stepped in
very concerned about my state of mind.
I was taken to the phyciatric hospital
the first night in the back of police car
and stayed the night under observation
and let me tell you I was scared and vunerable.
There were so many there sick, shuffling,
rocking, mumbling and I knew I wasn't
that far gone. The next day I was evaluated
and passed their test and found out all I
had was an addiction problem and was
ordered to stay and learn about my addiction
and ways to live my life moving forward
without usin g alcohol to live and solve
life's problems.
There were several times when I was
young when I was severely abused by
my sick mom dealing with her own
demons. I didn't understand why I
was singled out amongst 3 other siblings
and just wanted end that misery,
but as I looked in the mirror with tears
flowing down my little face, I realized I was
a child of God and that He wouldn't want
me to hurt myself. So, I endured all of the
pain and eventually turned to alcohol
around 18 till 30 to numb the resentments
and memories of that time in my life.
There are many folks in emotional,
physical pain and never say a word
and then they are gone. Why didn't
they say anything and leave loved ones
behind wondering what happened and
if there was anything they could have done
to help.
Why didn't they ask for help? Were they
afraid of what others would think of them?
Maybe no one would understand what they
are going thru, how they were feeling?
For me, no one saw the signs of the
pain I was feeling inside nor the destruction
alcohol and addiction was doing to me. I
mean, I didn't realize I had an addiction
problem until a doctor or phyciastrist
told me because he knows about addiction
and its affects on folks. He's familiar with
the signs.
Don't be afraid because you want to
know what the underlying issue is inside
you that is making your feel the way
you are. In fact I believe you are reaching
deep within with willingness to do what
is necessary to get help for yourself.
It's a process and you are heading into
the proper way to receive this important
information to help you heal and get
healthy.
Stay strong friend and know you are
never alone.
suicide thoughts. That doesn't mean
we are crazy. In fact, because of my,
and I don't like to use the word suicide,
but in all reality and in my deep dark
sickness with addiction, I was looking
for instant relief to end what I call as
a failure from trying to control my
drinking and doing things I wasn't
suppose to be doing. Staying out late
at night knowing I had family safe
and sound at home. I left them not
even caring if they were worried
about my wear abouts at wee hours
of the morning. Yes, I was selfish and
sick.
Anyway, I did take a had full of pills
downed with alcohol before my babies
couldn't wake me the next morning.
Thank God my attempt to sleep forever
didn't happen and that family stepped in
very concerned about my state of mind.
I was taken to the phyciatric hospital
the first night in the back of police car
and stayed the night under observation
and let me tell you I was scared and vunerable.
There were so many there sick, shuffling,
rocking, mumbling and I knew I wasn't
that far gone. The next day I was evaluated
and passed their test and found out all I
had was an addiction problem and was
ordered to stay and learn about my addiction
and ways to live my life moving forward
without usin g alcohol to live and solve
life's problems.
There were several times when I was
young when I was severely abused by
my sick mom dealing with her own
demons. I didn't understand why I
was singled out amongst 3 other siblings
and just wanted end that misery,
but as I looked in the mirror with tears
flowing down my little face, I realized I was
a child of God and that He wouldn't want
me to hurt myself. So, I endured all of the
pain and eventually turned to alcohol
around 18 till 30 to numb the resentments
and memories of that time in my life.
There are many folks in emotional,
physical pain and never say a word
and then they are gone. Why didn't
they say anything and leave loved ones
behind wondering what happened and
if there was anything they could have done
to help.
Why didn't they ask for help? Were they
afraid of what others would think of them?
Maybe no one would understand what they
are going thru, how they were feeling?
For me, no one saw the signs of the
pain I was feeling inside nor the destruction
alcohol and addiction was doing to me. I
mean, I didn't realize I had an addiction
problem until a doctor or phyciastrist
told me because he knows about addiction
and its affects on folks. He's familiar with
the signs.
Don't be afraid because you want to
know what the underlying issue is inside
you that is making your feel the way
you are. In fact I believe you are reaching
deep within with willingness to do what
is necessary to get help for yourself.
It's a process and you are heading into
the proper way to receive this important
information to help you heal and get
healthy.
Stay strong friend and know you are
never alone.
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Thread Starter
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Originally Posted by aasharon90
Don't be scared to tell them about
suicide thoughts. That doesn't mean
we are crazy. In fact, because of my,
and I don't like to use the word suicide,
but in all reality and in my deep dark
sickness with addiction, I was looking
for instant relief to end what I call as
a failure from trying to control my
drinking and doing things I wasn't
suppose to be doing. Staying out late
at night knowing I had family safe
and sound at home. I left them not
even caring if they were worried
about my wear abouts at wee hours
of the morning. Yes, I was selfish and
sick.
Anyway, I did take a had full of pills
downed with alcohol before my babies
couldn't wake me the next morning.
Thank God my attempt to sleep forever
didn't happen and that family stepped in
very concerned about my state of mind.
I was taken to the phyciatric hospital
the first night in the back of police car
and stayed the night under observation
and let me tell you I was scared and vunerable.
There were so many there sick, shuffling,
rocking, mumbling and I knew I wasn't
that far gone. The next day I was evaluated
and passed their test and found out all I
had was an addiction problem and was
ordered to stay and learn about my addiction
and ways to live my life moving forward
without usin g alcohol to live and solve
life's problems.
There were several times when I was
young when I was severely abused by
my sick mom dealing with her own
demons. I didn't understand why I
was singled out amongst 3 other siblings
and just wanted end that misery,
but as I looked in the mirror with tears
flowing down my little face, I realized I was
a child of God and that He wouldn't want
me to hurt myself. So, I endured all of the
pain and eventually turned to alcohol
around 18 till 30 to numb the resentments
and memories of that time in my life.
There are many folks in emotional,
physical pain and never say a word
and then they are gone. Why didn't
they say anything and leave loved ones
behind wondering what happened and
if there was anything they could have done
to help.
Why didn't they ask for help? Were they
afraid of what others would think of them?
Maybe no one would understand what they
are going thru, how they were feeling?
For me, no one saw the signs of the
pain I was feeling inside nor the destruction
alcohol and addiction was doing to me. I
mean, I didn't realize I had an addiction
problem until a doctor or phyciastrist
told me because he knows about addiction
and its affects on folks. He's familiar with
the signs.
Don't be afraid because you want to
know what the underlying issue is inside
you that is making your feel the way
you are. In fact I believe you are reaching
deep within with willingness to do what
is necessary to get help for yourself.
It's a process and you are heading into
the proper way to receive this important
information to help you heal and get
healthy.
Stay strong friend and know you are
never alone.
suicide thoughts. That doesn't mean
we are crazy. In fact, because of my,
and I don't like to use the word suicide,
but in all reality and in my deep dark
sickness with addiction, I was looking
for instant relief to end what I call as
a failure from trying to control my
drinking and doing things I wasn't
suppose to be doing. Staying out late
at night knowing I had family safe
and sound at home. I left them not
even caring if they were worried
about my wear abouts at wee hours
of the morning. Yes, I was selfish and
sick.
Anyway, I did take a had full of pills
downed with alcohol before my babies
couldn't wake me the next morning.
Thank God my attempt to sleep forever
didn't happen and that family stepped in
very concerned about my state of mind.
I was taken to the phyciatric hospital
the first night in the back of police car
and stayed the night under observation
and let me tell you I was scared and vunerable.
There were so many there sick, shuffling,
rocking, mumbling and I knew I wasn't
that far gone. The next day I was evaluated
and passed their test and found out all I
had was an addiction problem and was
ordered to stay and learn about my addiction
and ways to live my life moving forward
without usin g alcohol to live and solve
life's problems.
There were several times when I was
young when I was severely abused by
my sick mom dealing with her own
demons. I didn't understand why I
was singled out amongst 3 other siblings
and just wanted end that misery,
but as I looked in the mirror with tears
flowing down my little face, I realized I was
a child of God and that He wouldn't want
me to hurt myself. So, I endured all of the
pain and eventually turned to alcohol
around 18 till 30 to numb the resentments
and memories of that time in my life.
There are many folks in emotional,
physical pain and never say a word
and then they are gone. Why didn't
they say anything and leave loved ones
behind wondering what happened and
if there was anything they could have done
to help.
Why didn't they ask for help? Were they
afraid of what others would think of them?
Maybe no one would understand what they
are going thru, how they were feeling?
For me, no one saw the signs of the
pain I was feeling inside nor the destruction
alcohol and addiction was doing to me. I
mean, I didn't realize I had an addiction
problem until a doctor or phyciastrist
told me because he knows about addiction
and its affects on folks. He's familiar with
the signs.
Don't be afraid because you want to
know what the underlying issue is inside
you that is making your feel the way
you are. In fact I believe you are reaching
deep within with willingness to do what
is necessary to get help for yourself.
It's a process and you are heading into
the proper way to receive this important
information to help you heal and get
healthy.
Stay strong friend and know you are
never alone.
I have been in the psych ward twice in my early twenties on two separate suicide attempts......hardly remember a thing I was so hammered!
Thank you so much for your words of kindness and wisdom
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Just finished my session........he says he has heard STRANGER ocd thoughts, he told me in no uncertain terms that this will NOT be an easy path and it will take hard work and effort on my part but if i trust in the process then i will recover.
i have SOME hope, i guess that will be enough for me to hang onto .
Thanks to each and every one of you, your all amazing!
i have SOME hope, i guess that will be enough for me to hang onto .
Thanks to each and every one of you, your all amazing!
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