Im close to breaking
Im close to breaking
Not goona lie Im actually tempted to pick up a drink right now......I iust wanna blackout and forget!
Im on day 52 and doing really well but the terrifying thoughts are going round and round and wont stop!
Im on day 52 and doing really well but the terrifying thoughts are going round and round and wont stop!
its just those religious ocd thoughts, about hell, unpardonable sin etc etc just going on and on and ON and I gotta wait til the 17th for my Skype session with a Christian therapist!
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I hear you - going through pretty much the same period now. I would like to blackout...but without alcohol being involved.
What can I say?
Can't come up with anything better than a platitude "This too shall pass".
Platitude as it is, it's true.
There were hundreds, if not thousands of moments in my life when I felt hopeless. Then after some time I looked back and realized that the situation worked out somehow.
Get out somewhere. Go for a walk. Hit the gym. Anything to get yourself out of your head. You don't have to live in your thoughts right now. The fact that they are attacking you doesn't mean you have to listen.
If anything, stay here and post.
Remember, you are not allowed to drink until at least three members give you permission to do so.
Cheer up.
What can I say?
Can't come up with anything better than a platitude "This too shall pass".
Platitude as it is, it's true.
There were hundreds, if not thousands of moments in my life when I felt hopeless. Then after some time I looked back and realized that the situation worked out somehow.
Get out somewhere. Go for a walk. Hit the gym. Anything to get yourself out of your head. You don't have to live in your thoughts right now. The fact that they are attacking you doesn't mean you have to listen.
If anything, stay here and post.
Remember, you are not allowed to drink until at least three members give you permission to do so.
Cheer up.
I hear you - going through pretty much the same period now. I would like to blackout...but without alcohol being involved.
What can I say?
Can't come up with anything better than a platitude "This too shall pass".
Platitude as it is, it's true.
There were hundreds, if not thousands of moments in my life when I felt hopeless. Then after some time I looked back and realized that the situation worked out somehow.
Get out somewhere. Go for a walk. Hit the gym. Anything to get yourself out of your head. You don't have to live in your thoughts right now. The fact that they are attacking you doesn't mean you have to listen.
If anything, stay here and post.
Remember, you are not allowed to drink until at least three members give you permission to do so.
Cheer up.
What can I say?
Can't come up with anything better than a platitude "This too shall pass".
Platitude as it is, it's true.
There were hundreds, if not thousands of moments in my life when I felt hopeless. Then after some time I looked back and realized that the situation worked out somehow.
Get out somewhere. Go for a walk. Hit the gym. Anything to get yourself out of your head. You don't have to live in your thoughts right now. The fact that they are attacking you doesn't mean you have to listen.
If anything, stay here and post.
Remember, you are not allowed to drink until at least three members give you permission to do so.
Cheer up.
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Join Date: Aug 2017
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Remind yourself of how you'd feel tomorrow, the agony and torture you'd feel, crippling hangover, guilt, anxiety, physical pain and torment. It will be 100 times worse than what you're feeling now.
Keep going, I have the utmost respect for you for achieving what you have so far.
We're all in this together
Keep going, I have the utmost respect for you for achieving what you have so far.
We're all in this together
Im starting to read it yes, just cant get this whole unpardonable sin thing outta my head, had it for about 3 days now, I done STUPID things when I was backslidden and I just cant help but think it was the unpardonable sin!
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just cant get this whole unpardonable sin thing outta my head, had it for about 3 days now, I done STUPID things when I was backslidden and I just cant help but think it was the unpardonable sin!
The only unpardonable sin is to not want to be forgiven. I used to have thoughts like that all the time. No one is perfect, and we all fall short and some of us have done horrendous things, drunk or sober. But what I always ask myself is Am I sorry? Do I know what I did was wrong? Did I tell God I was sorry? Would I do the same thing again? God knows our frailty and our heart. Rest easy, friend. It's going to be ok. =)
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Join Date: Oct 2012
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that's hardly unpardonable. thoughts are just thoughts - they are not FACTS. i suggest you find something else to turn your mind to - find an activity to engage in physically. get out of the circular thinking - break the pattern.
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