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Old 08-09-2017, 06:13 AM
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Im close to breaking

Not goona lie Im actually tempted to pick up a drink right now......I iust wanna blackout and forget!

Im on day 52 and doing really well but the terrifying thoughts are going round and round and wont stop!
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:17 AM
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Well you posted! Very good.
Try to do something distracting. Remember when you worked in the garden? Try a snack or a shower.
You're doing so great, Chilled.
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:17 AM
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You are doing really well DONT drink it will make things a lot worse, what thoughts are going around, chat to me for a bit until I
They go away
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:22 AM
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You are doing really well DONT drink it will make things a lot worse, what thoughts are going around, chat to me for a bit until I
They go away
its just those religious ocd thoughts, about hell, unpardonable sin etc etc just going on and on and ON and I gotta wait til the 17th for my Skype session with a Christian therapist!
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:24 AM
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I thought so, would it help if I got a number of a priest for you too talk too about it, everything is confidential and my priest I have called in the past for guidance and advice has been great
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I hear you - going through pretty much the same period now. I would like to blackout...but without alcohol being involved.

What can I say?

Can't come up with anything better than a platitude "This too shall pass".

Platitude as it is, it's true.

There were hundreds, if not thousands of moments in my life when I felt hopeless. Then after some time I looked back and realized that the situation worked out somehow.

Get out somewhere. Go for a walk. Hit the gym. Anything to get yourself out of your head. You don't have to live in your thoughts right now. The fact that they are attacking you doesn't mean you have to listen.

If anything, stay here and post.

Remember, you are not allowed to drink until at least three members give you permission to do so.

Cheer up.
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:26 AM
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Drinking won't help--it'll just put you deeper in the hole.
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:26 AM
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Originally Posted by MidnightBlue View Post
I hear you - going through pretty much the same period now. I would like to blackout...but without alcohol being involved.

What can I say?

Can't come up with anything better than a platitude "This too shall pass".

Platitude as it is, it's true.

There were hundreds, if not thousands of moments in my life when I felt hopeless. Then after some time I looked back and realized that the situation worked out somehow.

Get out somewhere. Go for a walk. Hit the gym. Anything to get yourself out of your head. You don't have to live in your thoughts right now. The fact that they are attacking you doesn't mean you have to listen.

If anything, stay here and post.

Remember, you are not allowed to drink until at least three members give you permission to do so.

Cheer up.
Cant leave the house im agoraphobic at the moment, ughhh this sux I just want it to STOP!!!!
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:30 AM
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chilled, you mentioned downloading matthew.
have you read it?
even if you had i highly suggest reading it again.
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:31 AM
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Remind yourself of how you'd feel tomorrow, the agony and torture you'd feel, crippling hangover, guilt, anxiety, physical pain and torment. It will be 100 times worse than what you're feeling now.

Keep going, I have the utmost respect for you for achieving what you have so far.

We're all in this together
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:32 AM
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chilled, you mentioned downloading matthew.
have you read it?
even if you had i highly suggest reading it again.
Im starting to read it yes, just cant get this whole unpardonable sin thing outta my head, had it for about 3 days now, I done STUPID things when I was backslidden and I just cant help but think it was the unpardonable sin!
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:36 AM
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You've done 52 days! Don't give in and waste the high score. You don't want to be back on a Day 1 - you'll be really cross with yourself. Hang in there.
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:39 AM
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Mark 2.5 my child your sins are forgiven, I have tried to paste this but I can't work out how to do it
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just cant get this whole unpardonable sin thing outta my head, had it for about 3 days now, I done STUPID things when I was backslidden and I just cant help but think it was the unpardonable sin!


The only unpardonable sin is to not want to be forgiven. I used to have thoughts like that all the time. No one is perfect, and we all fall short and some of us have done horrendous things, drunk or sober. But what I always ask myself is Am I sorry? Do I know what I did was wrong? Did I tell God I was sorry? Would I do the same thing again? God knows our frailty and our heart. Rest easy, friend. It's going to be ok. =)
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I thought so, would it help if I got a number of a priest for you too talk too about it, everything is confidential and my priest I have called in the past for guidance and advice has been great
Thanks so much, where is he located?
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when I was backslidden and I just cant help but think it was the unpardonable sin!
Did you kill someone?
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:41 AM
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:43 AM
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Did you kill someone?
No. but I walked away from God and shouted at Him got angry towards my brothers and sisters in Christ and listened to seriously bad music etc
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:45 AM
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that's hardly unpardonable. thoughts are just thoughts - they are not FACTS. i suggest you find something else to turn your mind to - find an activity to engage in physically. get out of the circular thinking - break the pattern.
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Old 08-09-2017, 06:54 AM
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No. but I walked away from God and shouted at Him got angry towards my brothers and sisters in Christ and listened to seriously bad music etc
saul murdered christians in the name of christianity.
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