Back to day one.
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Back to day one.
I never actually thought I'd make a post with this title. Mainly because I've seen so many others like it. But it's true. I am finally back to day one of sobriety, after a long relapse.
My day one was yesterday, actually, 1st August, 2017. It's 1:30am here so I'm officially into day two.
I decided the night of the 31st July to quit once again because, as expected, alcohol has continued to cause numerous problems in my life. Most of all, it's seriously affecting my already tense relationship with my husband.
I also read a self help article on self love and self esteem a few days ago and it stressed the importance of valuing one self. I realized that I haven't valued myself in a very long time. The continued abuse of alcohol is one of the most glaring signs. I've been doing physical, mental, psychological and emotional damage to my body by indulging in alcohol and I truly believe it's now time to say goodbye forever to the vice.
I actually thought that day one would be difficult but it wasn't so bad. I thought I wouldn't be able to stay up late working without drinking but here I am with my lemon tea keeping me warm.
Needless to say, I'm really happy to have taken this step again. Thank you to all you my SR fam for all your support at all times.
Taking this one day at a time.
Lava.
My day one was yesterday, actually, 1st August, 2017. It's 1:30am here so I'm officially into day two.
I decided the night of the 31st July to quit once again because, as expected, alcohol has continued to cause numerous problems in my life. Most of all, it's seriously affecting my already tense relationship with my husband.
I also read a self help article on self love and self esteem a few days ago and it stressed the importance of valuing one self. I realized that I haven't valued myself in a very long time. The continued abuse of alcohol is one of the most glaring signs. I've been doing physical, mental, psychological and emotional damage to my body by indulging in alcohol and I truly believe it's now time to say goodbye forever to the vice.
I actually thought that day one would be difficult but it wasn't so bad. I thought I wouldn't be able to stay up late working without drinking but here I am with my lemon tea keeping me warm.
Needless to say, I'm really happy to have taken this step again. Thank you to all you my SR fam for all your support at all times.
Taking this one day at a time.
Lava.
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Lava - good news that you're reclaiming your life once again & getting free of it. I used to long for the fun I once had while drinking - but that was decades ago - and those days can never come back. Somewhere along the way I became dependent on it - and it can't possibly bring me anything but grief & misery. Happy to have you back! 
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Welcome back Lava! I had a very similar experience on December 31, 2015. I knew I needed to be done with drinking, I'd had many failed attempts at moderation, and although nothing awful happened drinking was affecting every aspect of my life.
I have 19 months sober today (8/1), and this site has been my greatest resource. Check out Dee's links about a plan, join the August 2017 class, and pop into the 24 hour thread each day and commit to 24 hours of sobriety.
You can do this, I am glad you are back!!
I have 19 months sober today (8/1), and this site has been my greatest resource. Check out Dee's links about a plan, join the August 2017 class, and pop into the 24 hour thread each day and commit to 24 hours of sobriety.
You can do this, I am glad you are back!!
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
Welcome back Lava
Have you given any thought to how you'll stay sober this time?
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Have you given any thought to how you'll stay sober this time?
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However, I know I need to prioritize this. Just this evening, AV had already started on me. Going good and strong so far, though...
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Originally Posted by Delilah1
Welcome back Lava! I had a very similar experience on December 31, 2015. I knew I needed to be done with drinking, I'd had many failed attempts at moderation, and although nothing awful happened drinking was affecting every aspect of my life.
I have 19 months sober today (8/1), and this site has been my greatest resource. Check out Dee's links about a plan, join the August 2017 class, and pop into the 24 hour thread each day and commit to 24 hours of sobriety.
You can do this, I am glad you are back!!
I have 19 months sober today (8/1), and this site has been my greatest resource. Check out Dee's links about a plan, join the August 2017 class, and pop into the 24 hour thread each day and commit to 24 hours of sobriety.
You can do this, I am glad you are back!!
I will definitely forge out a plan for myself.... I'm reluctant to join yet another class, however (I was part of the March 2017 one). I don't want to keep joining a new class every after a relapse (not that I plan on relapsing again, of course). The 24 hour thread, I will do! Thanks.
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Originally Posted by january161992
how are you today Lava?
I was OK while at work. AV started to get to me when I got home but I've managed so far to shake it off. My husband got home at about 10:30pm and immediately had a drink. Boy, did I want one too. But I held back.
I'm only worried because I have to stay up working late this week, through next week and I'm up alone so I can basically do whatever I want. How do I fight that temptation? Oh, I'm drinking tea right now, so at least I have something to keep me preoccupied.
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Hi Lava, we've all been there, I'm back to day one yet again after only 30 days and hope to try my second attempt at a 28 day recovery program next week to finally put me demons to rest. I'm in the last chance saloon with my job and wife. Best of luck going forward in your sobriety 😊
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