bronzie

I just hate feeling like I'm a failure and I suck at life. I'm kinda sad tonight, which is rare for me, I'm usually just like whatever. Here I am almost 35 years old and still working a low wage job that I am overqualified for, being unorganized and also single because I can't commit to anything, and it seems like there's not enough time to put towards any of those things. I go to work and take care of my kids....I'm a single mom now....that's what I do. I'm scared of relationships anyway because of the physical and verbal/emotional abuse I have experienced in most of my relationships. The person I have been with is awful to me most of the time. Anyway, I'm not on a pity pot or anything, just recognizing my feelings, which is something I absolutely hate doing. I just have to buckle down, move forward in life not feeling crappy, and stay on this sober path that I have faith will make things better for me and my family. The only question is when? How long until things go better and life gets easier....ever? I don't wanna keep drinking my way through just to never find out!

Dee74

Hi Bronzie

I can guarantee that staying sober will give you the best chance of the life, job or family you want.

Drinking just ensures you'll be stuck where you are now.. or worse.

D

Soberandhealthy

Hi Bronzie,

Please don't drink nothing will get better and you don't know if you ever will achieve the same sobriety . I did 18 days before I'm now I can't put together a week.

I am in a bad place right now, my husband is in the hospital because I pass out in his birthday and he got into an accident taking the dog out. It was my responsibility to take the dog out but yet again you can't count on me I'm a drunk.

I'm in pain he is in the hospital I have been calling out of work for two days. I feel guilty and hopeless.

I want to quit for good but I really don't know how who can help me I have annileated everything everyone I'm alone. And I'm destroying everything I love.

Life is not easy that's why I started drinking I can't handle anything like nothing. I can't handle live gate failure happiness I mean nothing I have to drink for everything.

I'm in trouble in deep **** and I don't know if even god can help me. I'm screaming for help from anyone I need to get out and clean the harrdrive and reinvent myself and stop this madness.
Do not drink nothing will be better believe

Delilah1

Hi Bronzie,

I am glad you are here and posting. Dee's advice is very wise, drinking isn't going to help.

I have been sober for 18 months now, and although there have been some difficult family situations, life is so much better.

Start by staying sober for you. Once you have some time under your belt explore some other job options that you may like better. What would you like to do?

mejorando

Thanks so much, bronzie. So many of us feel this way early on and, trust me, the fact that you´re following this sober path makes you a ****ing rock star.

It´s hard to put a timeline on things, but they absolutely do get better. For me, things are coming together one thing at a time. I still suck at some roles in my life but compared to my pre-sobriety it´s a world of difference.

Thanks so much for posting! I´m rooting for you

tomls

I know it seems like time is passing so slow when you are waiting on something that you want so bad RIGHT NOW!!! That is an alcoholic trait. We all have it. This journey of sobriety teaches us patience.

PhoenixJ

stuff for me gets better- with very,very hard work. I put at least the amount of time I spent on drinking, like the planning of, preparation, hiding..then the drinking- throwing away empties...
I drank because I thought I was crap. So my life was crap- a vicious circle. Stop drinking was first. Having support -daily to be strong enough. SMART/AA meetings, counselling, GP, psychologist, online info, SR, TED TALKS info....
journal writing, art, reading, researching..SHARING at meetings.
Post here until you do not want to, then post because you do not want to.
To break the cycle of drinking I tried lots of different things. Stuff that seemed stupid..like a high rope adventure park challenge (I had a lifelong obsessive fear of heights), like going back to church- for the coffee mornings and socialising. Going to the library. Anything.
Support to you.

doggonecarl

^This.

Life doesn't get better just because we get sober. Sobriety is foundation upon which we build a better life.

KES06

Becoming sober does not immediately create unicorns and rainbows. I'm not certain it ever does. But the self loathing, shame, depression, apathy, and so much more I experienced while drinking is gone. Sobriety isn't easy, or else there wouldn't be such a thing as an alcoholic! But please keep going, Bronzie. Having the drunk fog lifted away sure does make resolutions to problems a lot easier to find. We are here for you. Don't pick up that drink!

tealily

Bronzie,

So glad you are here. We want to help. Nothing is made better by alcohol. I know you know this, but drinking to dull pain is only short term. The only way to a better life is to stop.

Don't "try" not to drink. Don't. Don't buy it, don't pour it into your mouth. Don't drink today, and then tomorrow the same thing. One day at a time.

You have the power!

Hang in there. Life can be so much better. You can turn the corner NOW.

Andagain

I think, at least from the times I've had temporary alcohol stops (I never intended to quit forever until now) that sometimes thinking that everything will automatically be amazing can actually be damaging. Life will be better without alcohol, no doubt, but I used to and I think a lot of people do think that being sober will be a magic cure for anything. It's the biggest step to getting your life together but not the only step.

bronzie

Thanks to everyone who responded to my post. I got thru last night, today is my birthday, I worked another long day underpaid and overqualified. But I decided to look at the positive in life. I'm healthy, I have a job, my family and kids who love and support me, and I know I can do this! Thank you all again!

Dee74

my best birthdays have been sober ones Bronzie - have a good night and happy birthday

D

doggonecarl

Enjoy your birthday!

2ndhandrose

have a fantastic birthday, bronzie

Mizzuno

Happy Birthday, Bronzie!

Life does get better. The removal of alcohol is only one component. Our thoughts and actions are the other components that seem to be very crucial, in my opinion. When we have time to restructure, to think, to implement and take action because we are not spending our time drowning ourselves out with alcohol life becomes better.

For me life is better in these ways:
I am healthy. I am physically strong. I am level headed. My relationships are stronger. Energy is level. There is more money. More time to relax. More of everything as I am not sick from alcohol.

Take it in baby steps and notice the small improvements. I assure you that life does get better with action and with changing your mental landscape.

Carlsbrad

Bronzie-
I only have 12 days, but will tell you that the longer you go without booze, the more positive you will feel about your future, at least I do .... I made it through a round of golf with people drinking around me all afternoon yesterday, and you made it through a birthday.... I call both PROGRESS!!