Back again at day one. But I am grateful I made it back!!!
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Back again at day one. But I am grateful I made it back!!!
Well I am back. It didn't take as long for me to find my way back this time which is nice.
Got out of bed at 4 am fed the doggies, did the dishes piled up in the sink,cleaned the kitchen and poured the alcohol down the sink.
So thanks for still being here and giving me a place to come back to for support and advise.
I need to figure out what to do when something pushes my anger / resentment buttons as it is a killer for me and staying sober.
I think I need to get some counseling to help with this issue.
Just going to slip in and out of here all day and read up on what I have been missing.
Thanks to you all.
asixstringnut
Got out of bed at 4 am fed the doggies, did the dishes piled up in the sink,cleaned the kitchen and poured the alcohol down the sink.
So thanks for still being here and giving me a place to come back to for support and advise.
I need to figure out what to do when something pushes my anger / resentment buttons as it is a killer for me and staying sober.
I think I need to get some counseling to help with this issue.
Just going to slip in and out of here all day and read up on what I have been missing.
Thanks to you all.
asixstringnut
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Hey asixstringnut -- What sorta guitar do you play? Looks like a Gibson in your Avatar ..
OK... It's all a process... getting sober.
Sometimes we "think" we need to drink because we are upset or mad or just plain tired. But please ... Make a plan. A Simple Plan. The Plan of what are you going to do " the next time you are pissed off".
Maybe it's something simple.... Strum the guitar, eat some ice cream. Take a walk.
Hope this helps!
OK... It's all a process... getting sober.
Sometimes we "think" we need to drink because we are upset or mad or just plain tired. But please ... Make a plan. A Simple Plan. The Plan of what are you going to do " the next time you are pissed off".
Maybe it's something simple.... Strum the guitar, eat some ice cream. Take a walk.
Hope this helps!
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I am glad you made it back.
You can do this.
Plan. A plan for recovery. In my first few weeks and even now I have structured time. I plan out my days but more importantly I plan out my evenings as that was the time where I drank one bottle of wine. On the weekends it was more. It became an awful way to live my life.
We are here for support.
You can do this.
Plan. A plan for recovery. In my first few weeks and even now I have structured time. I plan out my days but more importantly I plan out my evenings as that was the time where I drank one bottle of wine. On the weekends it was more. It became an awful way to live my life.
We are here for support.
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glad ya made it back.
i found the program of AA helped me find causes and conditions for my rageaholic and resentment problems. had a great way to fix it,too, that DIDNT involve a baseball bat upside peoples' heads.
i found the program of AA helped me find causes and conditions for my rageaholic and resentment problems. had a great way to fix it,too, that DIDNT involve a baseball bat upside peoples' heads.
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Yay, six, you are back!!!!!
I think counselling is an excellent idea to help you with anger and resentment. I have been in counselling in the past and plan to get back to it soon, as I find I am having trouble forgiving some situations in the past.
Stick close to your SR family
I think counselling is an excellent idea to help you with anger and resentment. I have been in counselling in the past and plan to get back to it soon, as I find I am having trouble forgiving some situations in the past.
Stick close to your SR family
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Hello!
You saw this coming with your "what's the point" thread and the one where you said you were sad about not drinking on the holidays and on your birthday. Amend your plan to include situations like these and be prepared next time. The AV likes to come in waves but if we learn to recognize it it gets easier to deal with it.
I am glad you are back. Up and on !!!!
You saw this coming with your "what's the point" thread and the one where you said you were sad about not drinking on the holidays and on your birthday. Amend your plan to include situations like these and be prepared next time. The AV likes to come in waves but if we learn to recognize it it gets easier to deal with it.
I am glad you are back. Up and on !!!!
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Originally Posted by Mizzuno 
I am glad you made it back.
You can do this.
Plan. A plan for recovery. In my first few weeks and even now I have structured time. I plan out my days but more importantly I plan out my evenings as that was the time where I drank one bottle of wine. On the weekends it was more. It became an awful way to live my life.
We are here for support.
You can do this.
Plan. A plan for recovery. In my first few weeks and even now I have structured time. I plan out my days but more importantly I plan out my evenings as that was the time where I drank one bottle of wine. On the weekends it was more. It became an awful way to live my life.
We are here for support.
This can definitely be your last start.
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Welcome back, asixstringnut.
Counseling sounds a great idea.
Also, Mizzuno mentioned how much a plan helped her.
Do you have a plan?
I'll post links to a couple of great SR threads on the topic of plans.
Counseling sounds a great idea.
Also, Mizzuno mentioned how much a plan helped her.
Do you have a plan?
I'll post links to a couple of great SR threads on the topic of plans.
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So glad to see you back here six.
I think the next time you feel angry you have to write a song about it. Doesn't have to be the whole thing but at least two verses and a chorus.
This isn't easy work but the fact that you're back here shows you want it.
Never give up!
I think the next time you feel angry you have to write a song about it. Doesn't have to be the whole thing but at least two verses and a chorus.
This isn't easy work but the fact that you're back here shows you want it.
Never give up!
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Thanks for all the positive comments. Wow depression is very strong today. I feel like I am walking in quick sand. I know that alcohol is a depressant but it has really hit me today.
I imagine it will take a week or so to start feeling a little less depressed.
I read somewhere once that depression is anger turned inward. Well I am pretty angry at myself over drinking again.
Day one's are never easy for me.
asixstringnut
I imagine it will take a week or so to start feeling a little less depressed.
I read somewhere once that depression is anger turned inward. Well I am pretty angry at myself over drinking again.
Day one's are never easy for me.
asixstringnut
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Originally Posted by asixstringnut
Thanks for all the positive comments. Wow depression is very strong today. I feel like I am walking in quick sand. I know that alcohol is a depressant but it has really hit me today.
I imagine it will take a week or so to start feeling a little less depressed.
I read somewhere once that depression is anger turned inward. Well I am pretty angry at myself over drinking again.
Day one's are never easy for me.
asixstringnut
I imagine it will take a week or so to start feeling a little less depressed.
I read somewhere once that depression is anger turned inward. Well I am pretty angry at myself over drinking again.
Day one's are never easy for me.
asixstringnut
Six This can be your last day 1, then you never have to do another one. It's that fantastic news?!?!?
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